`` To See PANDA in China.
`` South Africa Trip.
`` Back To Cambodia.
`` HOLIDAYS! (:
`` plenty of MONEY.
`` get my diploma.
`` BURBERRY bag.
`` WONDERFUL 21st B'DAE
ohwell.. i have not being actively blogging. super tired lar. =D hahaha! holidays nowaday. not so bad huh. \= but then i'm bored. wheewee..
mdm heng email me. LOOK super funny duh~ but then appreciate it lots. ohwell.. got a new phone. but then, everything not updates yet, getting fustrated. haha.. this few days, have been doing alot alot alot of thinking. feeling ppl around me are leaving and somehow, i have nv done my part as a friend. what do you ppl think? everyone got irritated by me. but then, i realised, all of my friends are trying to change to get used to my lifestyle. which is basically unfair to them. i used to find apologizing ashame.. but then, why can i always say sorry to my uncle but not them. i'm, never a fair one. in live in a world of myself and still myself. i expect everyone to be by me when i need them, but once i got independence again, i nv realised they are the one tht help me when i last fall. i saw everyone's negative side when quarrel occur, but i tend to forget.. all this ppl are the one tht help me to pick myself up. in other words, i realise, i'm selfish. i nv thought of other feelings. in my world, there is only me who is staying alive. the rest, are not. but then, all this ppl are around me and treating me like a good friend.
my uncle scolded me for not being able to appreciate others. taking ppl for granted. yup, everyone endure everything and they are not allow to say me. tht's how my uncle find me too. he say i should know bettter than anyone. knowing if i reallyt reat them as friends or ppl who i need. well, he set me thinking.. and i know, once again, i'm so unreasonable. ;( well, i apologize. but then.. who will ever expect em to apologize. godpa say, i must learn to give and never always be the one taking. ohwells. i know. i'm sorry. yes, sorry to whoever are my friends and also whoever tht i have bully. and most imptly, sorry 4E3. i know they have been undergo lots of sufferings with me. i can throw their things, i can draw their properties, but i never allow them to touch my things. table and chair is mine. sigh.. yup, i'm selfish. sorry. but i really love 4E3 gangs. =D give me one more chance.. i will change and fit into you ppl lifestyle. they are the best buddy i ever have in life.
well.. this few days.. seriously.. uncle told me so much. hmm, he's leavign tml. i will miss him. yes, i will. sigh! =( he flying to perth follow by hongkong. mel say he's only returning on 6th aug. cant be ba.. i will go bonkers. argh! i told my beloved uncle, i will be waiting for him.. but he told me dun wait anymore. he's leaving soon. no point waiting. hais. and in te end, after wad i said, he ask me to shut up. i'm jsut trying my best to cheer him up but wad i have in return was shut up. it's perfectly fine with me. nvm, he's still my uncle. argh! so i say everything is my fault. i shut up. and no reply. i know he didnt want to quarrel with me. or should i say, we have been trying outr best to avoid all the quarrel we have. or tht might occur. i couldnt endure it if he gonna leave me. he keep telling me to have the preparation tht he will leave me soon. and i must be strong and pull it through. godpa, i couldnt be strong anymore. i cant. i really cant. can you believe it? sigh. can i jsut want you dun leave me alone in the world. godpa, you promise you will be there when i need you. but now, you have choose to leave me. how can you do tht. he ask me to sing tonghua if he passed away. he say, he want me to be there for the funeral. no way, if you choose to leave me, i will tag along. sigh.. pls don't scare me anymore. i cant take it if he really gonna be gone. =(
shalala.. thanks mel. for the template and stuff. love ya lots. she's there for me when i need and the one tht is really nice to me. =D it's great to have a wonderful junior like you. LOVE ya. i might not be a wonderful senior. but then, i realised, you have been a wonderful junior. for the next few months, when i'm not around in school, pls take care of my godpa! if anyone dare to bully him ( i suppose not!) i will kill. really. dun ever ever ever bully him. GRRRRRS~ i dun care. x( I WANT MY GODPA LAH! ohwell, fatehr days! shit. i haven ask joachim wad are we suppose to do. =D (but maybe godpa not in spore also lame.)
hmmm... nothing much i guess. i got so much things to do. i LOVE you ppl. hugs. i just cant stand it. stop showing me your fucking atiitude. *cool! godpa say treasure. yup.. i'm learning. yeah.
he told me : life is as such that you must learn through thick and thin. don't ask how much you have given to ppl, just ask yourself if you are asking for returns, imporatnt thing is, your conscience is clear and you dont owe people in guilt, you must pull thro, else you would be like me, failed to persevere on cos i am done. to godpa: no amtter wad you say, i wun let you go. no rotting. you are my sunshine. =D i will pull thorugh. and i believe now is only the down part of your life. be cool. I LOVE YOU! godpa, you got me. forever. yes, i'm not going to leave you alone. hugs!
