peiching & stevenchow

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

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somehow, the day have come. i have to say goodbye to him. well, i'm strong enough. i did wanted to wave. i wanted so much to tell mr koh:" take care of yourself, i wont be there for you anymore." but i cant. seeing him walking far far ahead of me, i hope i do have the courage to run up to him and tell him. but never.. i never did tht.

some sort of alst day in school. the feeling wasnt tht bad. finishing up the last chores of the voting of president for mr chui, whlie they are having meeting. the HOD room, the table, the laptop. everything, jsut so full of memories. just couldnt bear to let mr koh go, i didnt have the courage to let go my hand. i'm so afraid i will be loss. loss like last time, he manage to guide me through the dark and the path. i cant help saying, i need him badly.

i never realised saying bye is so hard. moreover, it's not a forever bye. but then, to live without seeing him and luahging with him. cheering him up, make me dunno how to carry on living. well, i can get over. cos he's my godpa, he told me i'm strong. hope so.

nothing much done today. being and chilling with friends is the biggest joy one can enjoy. if only, if.. if the tiem can just stay at tht very moment.. and the next moment, it's the end of the world, how nice will it be? at least i know, when it's end of the world, he's by me. he didnt leave me alone. well, i should just wake up. i think so too.

reach around noon time. haha.. slacking as usual. godpa got his usual long winded lesson. hmm, pass by the AVA, and i keep claiming i'm his favourite. and he told everyone to leave me 5m away. cos i'm crazy. he say he dunno me and want me to intro myself. could you actually believe tht, i scream:" i'm mr koh favourite!" outside the AVA? lol.. somehow, like wad godpa say, i never grow up and i'm fond of doing stupid thing. LOLS! hug you/

hmm, everyone bully me today. even mr soo! arghs!~ nvm lar. they LOVED me. i love them too. godpa was super disturbing! i think after meeting end or smth, he thank qis, rai and amal! and guess wad? he pretend cannot see me as usual. and i whack him! haha.. he was laughing lar. i'm so into his smile. I LOVE YOU, godpa. \x well, the shatec letter, haha.. he told me he dun feel like going up to the meeting. =( seeing him so stress, it make me felt the pain. i'm sorry.

shalalala~ my dream come true. someone i want, have the highest ****! sercret. TOP HAND secret. mr seah was super bad today. he was as usual saying ugly.. the theroy behind the ugly story. ahha.. meeting ended early, 6PM! surprisingly. omg~ hahah... went to play piano for mr koh. i think using recording is better ba. if he is there. i will never play for him, cos too nervous. i admit, i'm not a good pianist! x(

well, thinking and thinking. all my thoughts are full of him now. will godpa be happier after i left. will godpa not be so stress after i left? i'm sorry godpa, but i really couldnt put you off from my mind. =$ hmm, thansk to ppl like qis, rai and amal for accing me. it really touched my heart. thanks LOVE! <3

raihana~ what make yoou.... :P LOLS! =x
amal~ thanks for sharing with me. i think you are the only one who knows..
qis~ well, food culture for your birthday! i rmb lar. =D

hmm, somehow, friends? can i survived without friends? lol.. godpa flying off to hongkong, end of this month. alamak, i will be super lonely. =# but who cares. living to the fullest lar. i try. thankyou for being by me godpa. I LOVE YOU~ <3<3<3

i really need the courage to elt go my hand. =x mr chui email me. lame sey. haha.. call me ching ching. well, pls, if can take my life span away and make mr ko happy, seeing him smile is more worth than anything. ;) since you can take away 5 years for me, i can too.

rai told me the mp4 mr koh brought for me is cheap. but it's perfectly alright. =D tkc godpa. i have to learn how to give you space for breathing. haha~ i really dunno how to let go my both hand. i'm trying hard. trying my best. x)

ohh well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY IDA & JACK! =D LOVE YA PPL!~