• he's someone who taught me winning isnt tht important but the process. yes, everyone say that sentence.. but no one make me realise it until the soccer competition i have with mr tan when i'm sec2. ;(


• he's the one that taught me when i really perserver i get wad i want. just like running 2.4km. he's someone who taught me about integrity. well, same old thing. but somehow, when you realise, all this values have not been in me all this while. but them, i foudn the beauty of possessing this values.


• he taught me how to play floorball in the parade ground when he say:" just whack, it's alright."


• he is the one who tell me:" when you are doing something,. think of the goal and tell yourself you can make it."


• he is just someone when i refuse to run 2.4km, he have his own method to make me move.


• he's someone who is so ordinary yet, so exordinary to me.


• he's someone who when i say:" can i dun run 2.4km alone." he will be the one saying:" i will run with you dun worry."


• he's the one, who will keep track of his time watch and tell me how much time i have left.


• he's just someone who have trust in me telling me:" i dun need someone to wait for you at the longgang there. cos i believe you will not take short cut."


• he is someone who will push me on and when i achieve my goal, he will tell everyone, that's perserverance.


• he's the one when i decided to give up mid way during the run, he will tell me:" you are reaching, you already complete half of it, why give up now?"


• he's someone, who i can trust and talk to. and always tell me:" there's no free lunch in this world."


• he's someone who i really respect so much yet i got no courage to tell him.

tribute to mr george tan:
yes, i know you will never have a chance to read this. but who knows, you might just passby my blog one day. or someone ask you to my blog to read. this 3years, having you as my PE teacher, really make me grow up more. all along, i have not been really enjoying PE lesson, but i love most is the floorball and basketball you taught me before. well, i'm always the one giving you lots of headaches. telling you why i dun wanto do PE. hmm, you remember the soccer lesson in sec2, you told me i shouldnt be unhappy cos i lose, cos the friendship between us worth more. and "winning is not everything, it's the process" you set me thinking and thinking if it's worht it to actually fight over a game. when i cried during lesson, cos i'm moody, you will sit there and tell me wad to do or you will leave me alone, to cool down. you know i'm sucks at standing board jump, but you didnt laugh at me just becos i couldnt jump or when i failed. i didnt manage to get pass, you will ask me to try agian and again and refuse to let me fail. well, all this very small incident is remember very clearly in my mind. i'm not a good student who will keep quiet and not make noise in everything, but then, still.. you still treat me as normal and not like teachers who find me.. sucks in a sense of 2.4km run sound little and basically easy for others. but i never have the courage to run cos, i know somehow i will fail. but you are there for me, you say you will acc me to finish the road run. lol. i know i have been bullying mr cheng lar. and you dislike it. lol.. you never scold me before. i might not be the best student you have out there, but you are the best teacher i ever have. i'm really grateful, you accompany for the run and when i'm feeling down, you will cheer me up by suanning me. and when i cry, you will ask wad happen. yes, all this little action of yours really touch my heart. <3.>

alright, tht's just a small note to mr tan. well, he gonan leave. and i will miss him. yes i do. =D ok, talkign to mrs chew is great. she suggest me to write an email to all my friends especailly 4E3er to tell them how much i owe them. yup, i must learnt and know how to teasure my friends. i cant be possibly asking ppl to acc me when i'm in trouble but leaving them alone when they fall. i'm never a good firend. yes, i know and i realise now. talk abt mr lee sc, daddy. yes, he's another great man on earth. he's just someone i respect alot too. he's like my uncle. they ask me to pick up rubbish and they, themselves are doing it too. i remember clearly tht whenever tht's math in 4E3, mr koh will take sometime, to pick up the rubbish.. cos he always say:" a dirty enviroment is hard to learn" he dun mind picking up, just like daddy. daddy always pick up rubbish in stairs and when i say:" is not i throw one wad." den daddy will tell me:" does it look like i'm the one who threw it?" soo.. me: " den we both dun pick up lar." daddy:"if feveryone is like you, you think GR will be clean?" ok, daddy always scold and punish with reasons. yes, he always make me feel tht i have done something wrong and i wanted to admit it. lol. he is like godpa. godpa always say cannot lie and if i done something wrong, i must admit. maybe due to i have been lacking in discipline wise, and daddy and godpa are covering up for me. and they are really strict when there's a need. such as leaving my things anywhere. daddy will hide and make me panick. and drawing on ppl stuff without permission.. daddy will punish me by asking me to write lines, whlie godpa will really give me a harsh scolding. when i call ppl by name or scold sucker, daddy will warn me and scold me.. while godpa will threaten to punish me. ohwell.. i love them too. but then, one question ask by mrs chew today:" do you feel, you are been taken for granted?"

ok, i couldnt deny the fact tht i feel it when i tend to give too much and with no returns. but then, somehow, i tell myself, i t might be due to the bad things i have done for the past years and result me to suffer from such retribution now. ohwell.. i couldnt say much but i just hope, it's not true lar. i'm always nothing to ppl. the crazy and low EQ girl. ppl tend to suan me and bully me. sigh.. well, i'm thinking, if i'm the tanpeiching last time, will i still be treated like now. but then, for sure.. i will never heard truful statment anymore. nvm lar.. i miss them. sigh. godpa adn daddy.. be it you ppl take me for granted or wadsoever, i dun care. cos i love the two of you. hugs* =$

well.. losing track of the leftoverdays tht godpa is back. hmm, kind of tired already. maybe i will give the email tml. shatec replied, they say will really consider my appeal letter while maybank told me to wait for a few days. no comment. i just hope everything will be over soon. lol. -_-" sigh.. i'm tired. thanks. argh.. i dun wan mr tan to leave me. stop being selfish. =D