♥all you do, is pacify me with NOTHING.
alright. another day have end. seriously, i dunno wad the hell i'm doing one earth right now. some sort of living aimlessly. i turn to be quieten down and depress. wad the hell happen, seriously, i have no fucking idea at all. ;( sigh. smsedm y godpa loved today. sucker. no reply as usual. i thought i got used to it. i thought this dun hurt anymore. i thought when i told him i'm not feel nice, he at least will bother. oh, tanpeiching, wake up from tht fucking dream of yours. he doesnt care anymore. yes, he dun. actually, i dunno how come it hurt. sigh. but then as usual, i'm being stupid waiting for his reply. since 7:06 pm.. i waited and waited. and til 8pm came.. follow by 8:06pm, 1 hours of waiting.. blah blah blah.. in the end, i wait til now. thinking how come i behave this way, seriousyl i have no idea. my mood was control by him. when he doesnt care, i feel so sucks. lalala!~ perhaps, i haven grow up yet. ohwell, i always tot of the smile he gave me, when he knew i'm feel upset. but then.. how, no more.ms tan say i keep asking her abt my uncle. not only her. in fact, all the people around him. i got no choice. i cant walk to school and look for him. but i jsut want to know why he reacted like tht. tht's why i asked. perhaps, ppl regard me as irritating. so be it. i'm jsut feel so freaking tired to move on. lala.. ihe wun be in school for 3 weeks. 3 fucking whole week. but it doesnt affect me at all. no amtter wad, i jsut wanto tell ms tan, i love her trucks lot. thanks. ;)anyway, despite being ignore. i feel angry. lalala.. sucks. the feeling is sucks. ok, let it be. i didnt wanto quarrel or wadsoever. i think i better take more medication. lala. no mood to update. it simply scks to be ignore cos of a 5cetns. i really feel sucks right now. idiot.
