♥friends forever? PLS DUN JOKE =]
hehs.. i got this really good news this morning. shatec decided to take me in again. =D shalalala.. i was like sleeping halfway through and i got this call. hmm, thanks. i guess, i must really thank the school this time. lol. ok, the feeling is undescrible. so, well.. thank god and thanks to whoever have been contributing to this. =) especially godpa loved. lol. to you:ok, i really dunno what to say anymore. i listen to my godpa and tried my very best to clam myself down after to your blog. admit all those post were about you but then, it's was just anger of words. i know i'm in fault of writting all this and at the back, i tried to be friend back with you. cos godpa and shirley words set me thinking. i shouldnt be evil to you cos i realise when i really fall, you are there giving me a helping hand. that's why i apologized. but did you realised after i apologized you didnt really wanto accept me? i say sorry, you find it weird. i thought, isnt that wad you want? i treat you equal and with respect? i never ask for any returns i just ask for i dont live in guilt with treating you like tht. and then, you went to my odler post to find wad i saiy about you, ik now it hurt but then, is it really neceesary to bring up the past and once again, gone. the friendship. i dunno why you know, it's super hard to maintain the friendship among us. wadever i do or i say, somehow, i dunno if it's right, you will feel left out or hurt. i dunno hwo to be your friend anymore. really, i tried to gave in but then, there is still things for us to quarrel about. if you really think my odler post is wad i meant to say to you, den i really dunno wad to say. you know i'm so sick and tired of explaining myself when things happen. it's like when we are friend, there bound to be things to tackle us, and then you wan some explaination. i didnt find it hard to maintain my friendship with siying and xuan min.. but i really dunno why, does the problem really lies in me? i really wanted to treat you like who you are last time, perhaps even better. i dun deny the fact that i'm evil to you and i felt bless having the few of you being with me. i told mrs chew how much regrets i have especially towards elaineseah, racheal, you and the others.. but then, when the more i wanto give, you are like rejecting the chances to let me give. seriously, dun you find dwelling in the past a misery? i'm really tired. i really am. maybe you can say i'm full of scheme or smth, up to you, i dun feel like explaining anymore. it really hurt to see that when i'm trying to give more to others and you are like dwelling on the past, thinking about all those anger word that i have said when we quarrel. i tot we quarrel of cos, given a temper of me, it usual. i thought you ppl should know. ok, maybe i'm naive. i dunno. for wadever i ahve post last time, i'm sorry. ok? i dun mean to say you get close to me cos of my uncle, i dun mean to scold you sucker. ok, for all those evil things i have done to you, i'm sorry. can? i ahte to apologize for the sake of apologizing. so if you still doubt the sincerity of my apology, i got nothing to say. sigh.. friendship? sometime, i also couldnt help wondering, what actually happen. is i really didnt treasure you ppl or wad. i didnt mean it but then, sigh. i dunno, i really dunno. why not you help me by telling me how to be your friend. i gave up. sorry if i have really hurt you, cos i really dun mean it. but then, i thought you are the one who say foget about the past, ohwell.. i dunno. let it be. i have already type wad i feel like saying to you, i wun explain any further. ok. tkc. bye. *ps:/ it's not for anybody yea. if you think it's for you. den haahah! *evil-grin*feel like so much to share all this happy news with godpa. but then, he's not with me. ytd i think of his cunning smile and i actually laugh to myself. i must be crazy. wahahas! -_-" feel like eating egg tarts. super nice lar. waahahas! tml working as usual. how come my weekdays forever pass so fast. godpa trips end on the 20th. which mean 12 more days. lalalala~ i love godpa. ;)he's in perth again. whoohoo!~ andy went to austrilla but then dunno which part, ok, shan lame. i miss mr seah lar.mel told me abotu something. thanks love. get it over. i will help you. LOL! alright, i thought of zhongping and jack. random. dunno where the hell this two people have gone to. hahaha! ok, i miss sword fighting with mr seah and i miss daddy. hahaha! ~ father day. shiat! 9 more days, and the c ard is hellish lar. i only drew abit and left more to go. hahaha! i'm lazy to update my friendster. whoohoo!~ hhahaha...thank you godpa loved. haha! <3>.
