shalalala!~ i'm yawning. i'm god damn tired today. alamak. i really cant take it anymore. just wondering how come i'm so super sleepy head as usual. =( but then,i jsut hope there is such job tht when i need it, i will sleep and when i feel like working, i will work. argh! tanpeiching. you must work hard lar. hahahah! i miss my classmates. ;( my 4E3.. i miss them trucks lot.

i love this picture so much. see, all of us are SMILING! =DDDD

hahaha! look at the guys, they are always my sunshine.


ok. time to grow up peiching. dun always live in 4E3 lar. LOL. but then, i miss every single one of them. if nly, the year can start all over again. i dun mind using up all my life span in exchange for tht one more year. yes, it got hell memorable. sigh. i miss them. i miss them alot. i jsut remeber if i were to be crying now, they will be there for me. sigh. i miss themmmmm... 4E3. x( [ of cos, i have alot more photo. haha. upload later.]

- wait ah... i feel like bathing. ala~ random. LOLS! =x

ok/ i'm trying my best to show off the theme i have just make. but then. LOL. cannot ley. nvm lar. i'm so freaking tired today. central is not fun at all. yes, not at all. sucks like crazy. hmm.. my phone gonna be a week old tml. happy 1 week dar. LOL. lame. omg, got this promoter lar, she is 25 this year, shiat. she's with a child. i dunno why ppl commit themselve so fast. ohwell.. different ppl, different point of view. =D

heh heh.. my collegues say my phone is chio. of cos lar. ok, unable to sell any dumb cameras today. simply ate central. if they carry on putting me there, i tell you, it simply impossible to sell at all. cos the camera has no incentive at all. the ppl there refus eto sell. not all but some. =D ok, stop complaining abt the working part. argh. why isnt i the real princess.. ~!!@#@%#^$&^ tht i need to fuckingly work. =X i miss godpa. wondering wad he is doing at this moment. sigh. i miss you dad. yes, i really do. =(

ok.. on the way home.. i suddenly think of this few ppl. xuewei, gary, jack, bryan, sze chieh, jenkins, faed and a few of my leaders. i dunno why. maybe they really did entertain me when i'm in GR. well, i miss you ppl. can you all see or not? ohh.. and winnie as well as siling too. ;) yes, my few wonderful adn precious junior like mel. hais. miss so many ppl. lalalalala!~ tht's life. everyone walk at different pace. ohh, suddenly i rmb the faces when i told mr koh.. :

" i miss you! uncle *wide grin*"
- shocked face! " go away lar, dun disturb me."
"i'm willing to do anything for you!"
- *same old thing* "pls hor, dun hor. i dun wanto owe you."
"bring me go cambodia ler.. pls! i promise !@#$%^&*"
-calm~ " dun wan la."
"uncle, my birthday is coming!"
-irritated. " SIAO!~ dun be lame can or not."
"uncle, can i go with you later to take the blah blah blah......"
-desperate " pls lar. tell you how many time cannot bring you along. wan me to scold you huh?"

lalalala!~ suddenly all his shocking, desperated, irritated, tired, pissed, cheeky, with motive face appear in my mind. yup, every single one of it. especially when he gasped when he heard me saying something shocking. i love the look of his. cos, it make ma laugh. LOL. he will gasped whenever isay, mr koh, i need you... (actually haven complete, i wanted to say.. i need him to help me do smth) but he will gaspedacos he say this sound so wrong. godpa, where are you now? which part of the world? which part of perth. can you hurry back. i'm so afriad you will leave me in spore or in thisl onely world. yes, i'm afraid. =( eventually, you didnt promise not to leave me behind. sigh.

well, one mroe day to hang on. peiching can do it. cos she is a strong girl. yes, godpa sentence appear as usual. monday have to go down to bank. __ sey.. so boring to raffles. well, melissa is accing me. =D thankyou girl. i love <3 you lots. =O shalalala.. hasi. let it be lar. ok, time to go sleep. i want to eat waffles with chocolate and peanut butter tml. i'm mad, yes i know. LOL. ohwell.. i can. i dun care. ohh.. after bank. me and mel have to rush back to school. i need to run a camp for mr tan and mel have meeting. and tuesady, me and siying is bring weileong out for movie. POC i think. wed, i need to bring myself to chinatown for linjia, to collect her dumb stuff. haha.. garskin i think. i have no idea. ohwell.. i miss them. argh... 61 more days. happy counting.

to godpa : i know forever you will nv read this. at this point of time, i still dunno where are you in this part of world. it's round, the world is round somehow, it will go back to the starting point, but then, now.. i felt both of us are so far apart. i'm scare. i worry wad you told me like taking care of myself. you cantb e there for me anymore will come true. i have no courage to face the fact. tht night, when you ask me, wad will i do if you die, i really dunno how. every night, after you went to perth. i ask myself, wad if you really die, wad am i suppose to do. i tell you i dunno, i cant figure wad i will do. i only can fore see that i'm hugging your coffin and crying like crazy. just like you say, i couldnt face the reality. you sya if you were dead, you want the scrapebook as well as the dream house i make to be buried or burn with you. i couldnt imagine, how fuckingly you want me to carry it out. you say, if you were dead, play tonghua for the whole ceremony. i couldnt. i'm so afriad tht i will just recieve any call telling me tht : " sorry, your godpa is gone." i tell you, i'm so scare. i couldnt imagine life w/o you. cos liek you say, i have been so dependence on you until you dunno wad to do. you say if you leave the world, your biggest regret is that you have live in regrets. you said, if you die, i will still be the precious gem of yours. you old me so much. you say, you wanted to have your very own children. not like me and joachim. sigh. i really dunno. pls. i just thinking, where are you now. i really hope you could come back asap. i got so much to tell you, i got so much and so much to do before you left. i still got alot alot of thing tht i have not accomplish after i promise you. sigh. dun leave. i cant be strong. dun ask joachim to take care of me. i dun wan. i wan to bring you to other country. i want to bring you to zoo. i want to buy carrot cake. hais. i believe, you wun die. cos you cant die. i dunno is i'm deciving myself or wad. but if you really gonna be gone, i'll be los. you say you will be spritally with me nad joachim. but i tell you, i cant feel. i dun wan. i want to be rude to you, so you can scold me, to make me realise you are still alive. godpa,come back soon. you say dun wait. but i tell you, i'm anxiously waiitng. =D"

ok, godpa once say when i ask ppl to sms him for me when i'm in cambodia. he say.. " she like nv go cambodia, go for 10days also must sms me. ala!~ like gone for 10years." ahaha.. got one time, i was angry with him. and he actaully walk to me in class and say:" so long i never recieve your sms. still angry ah. crybaby." ;p hais. seriously, if he was t be gone. i really dunno wad to do. =X
well, tomorrow another day. and it's just another day nearer to godpa coming back to spore. ohyea. count down. x)

well.. godpa, tkc pls. i want you to be back to spore, you promise to be my marriage withness when i got married. and and and, you say you will seemy children grow up if they are as irritating as me. and and and, you wanted to tell my husband how to control me. lol. i dun care. come back k? -_-" i lvoe my godpa truck lot. yes, alot. =D

mel, love ya too. thanks for being there for me. yes, you are my wonderful junior. =D ncie girl indeed.