1. i help him in prom night when he request me to be in the committee.
2. i help him to gather ppl to write for him a testi for president award.
3. i help him in his leadership thingy for fun fiesta.
4. i help him when last time our class ppl refuse to hand in anything.
5. i make for him his dream house before i left cambodia.
6. i rush back to school once i arrive singapoe and went to get all his snoopy thing and cake.
7. i stay up whole night not sleeping but his president scrapebook.
8. i make his snoopy box even though he make mecry in wisma.
9. i attend leadership camp just becos, he need student helper.

but then, he intro me to adrain as a maid. did i ever complain abt it. i never. cos of him, i went back to school to help out and been bully by other teachers and called the free labour. but did he came to my recuse? no. whenever i feel so down, he feel even down-er than me. i got nothing gain when i'm back to GR to help, but i nv decline his request.

10. when he was out with ms evi and mrs chew on dinner. mr chui got no one to help. he ask me to go down cos he's busy.

11. he ask me to apologize to mr oday and ppl, cos i'm rude and i did.

12. cos of him, i told jack dun make trouble for him.

13. cos of him, i start to lose my own pride and face.

14. cos of him, my class ppl tot i'm the betrayer.

15. cos of him, i do many foolish thing in life.

but then, when i was in trouble.. i told myself, is he always there. perhaps, sometime or the otehr he was there but not always.

1. when i need a guarantor, he is not there for me.

2. when i was ill-treated by other teacher, he is not there for me.

3. when people told me, he abondon us and went to cambodia during prom night preparation, and when big things happen, he is still there for me. instead daddy was there and telling us wad to do and move on.

4. when he cancel away pine club and shift it back to school, he did not bother to explain why and how come. but i have to come up with reasons and reasons to protect him from being the liar.

5. when i neeed someone to help me to bring things over to cambodia, he promise say he will help but then, it's mr chui who help me eventually.

6. when i got no place to study, he didnt say anything, just ask me to secure and secure. perhaps, he boost my morale in other ways.

7. he promise prom night committee we will be brought out to have a nice dinner one day after he got his car, but is it true?

8. he say he is willing to do anything just for me. but is it true?

9. he say i'm the precious gem of his. but is it true?

10. he say he will show me appreciationg through actions but is it true?

perhaps, all this sound so nonsense to ppl ouside. it's like i'm trying to ask for returns, no. not returns. instead, i'm thinking, have i been the one giving too much and he already took me for granted. i dunno. i cant deny he is once there for me when i'm feeling down. telling me jokes and stuff. and also all those happy ahppy thing tht we once went through. yup, he's still a fanstactic dad no matter wad. but then, i just wonder, wad actually gone wrong between us.

is it becos, i couldnt help him tht's y he ignore me. is it becos he's too busy, tht's y he ignore me. is it becos, i accidentally offended him, tht's y he ignore me. or is it becos, i'm nv treated like a daughter to him. i dunno, i feel very loss and i could believe that he's such a person. becos of wad he told me privately, i ignore someone who is so super important to me and he is mr X. mr X told me alot when i'm feeling down and stuff. and after hearing wad he told me, i ignore mr X for a period of time. wad a bastard i'm. things got more messy along the way. i really dunno. beside waiting wad else can i do?

ytd out on field with the SISTERLUB. rp is super big. GRR! i lost my way. food is so-so, but to meet up with them, i feel loved. haha. was being crazy and stuff. do as usual alot of gossiping and chit chatting as well as shopping. went onto buy my shoe for school in causeay. GRRRR! waste my money. LOL. =x and melissatan was smsing with me. =_=" she cried during the interview. LOL. den to palza to purchase my body shop stuff with shirley. wad else. LOL.. but it have been a nice one since we have not ben meeting up regularly. LOL. kimchi beloved. LOL...

lim lin jia ; my kimchi beloved #1

tricia ker yu wei ; my kimchi beloved #2

tan si ying ; my kimchi beloved #3

shirley lee mei ling; my kimchi beloved #4

khor xuan min; my kimchi beloved #5

chong kai ling; my kimchi beloved #6.

*hahaha. so funny lar.* =X

okok, so went back home, and JACK was telling me how evil my unclewas towards him. so in order to calm him down, he went to bath. LOL. but jack, promise me you cannot cannot cannot ever whack him. i tell you. if not i will go back to school to wahck you. LOL. =x anyway, he say he cant promise, i think my uncel got too GL nowadays. i dunno. no longer in school. hahaa~

supposingly to go huayi today. but i'm down with serious flu and stuff. ARGH! =$ dying. LOL. =x orientation tml. cheers. all the best, tanpeiching. cos you are lovable. ;) i sitll miss my uncle koh so much. ;(