♥SChOOL SUCKS! i hate school.
well, school is darn bored today. but honestly, tht will be my comment like forever. i dun like school and forever that negative mindset abt school life nowadays. ohwell, let it be. oh, happy birthday paul, before i forgot. (: haha. thinking back, last time, we celebrate very individual birthday seem so great. (: 18year old already. hmm, 18 sound great. i want it too. wad will godpa get for me next year. wahahas. since, i always demand sooo much. =x well, life so just like a fucking routine of going to school and back home with tons of project and stuff. it sucks like crazy. iwasnt looking forward to anything or rather, there isnt anymore stuff i'm looking forward to. those days were history, i wasnt look forward to present or maybe future. well, it sucks. why on earth i seem the mmost strong but yet, emotionally weak. i wanted to just hide myself alone and thinking wad the hell i actually want. well, forget it.hmm, lesson for grammar was alright, as we were all listening to kassim and group presentation. and finally, i was paying attention during econs. godpa must be so proud of me. (: wheewee. haha. i understand abit and trying my best to understand fully. hahaha! exam coming lor. thanks to sugi, she tried to taught me on thursday i think. well, it seem quite alreight afterall. now to elasticity. ohwell, i kind of know wad mad scientist lai want. =x haha! and i taught chao ah beng abt it and he understand. he seem abit like samuel lim alst time. when i coach samuel, he is like so smart la. he understand once i use short and easy term for him. haha. i miss coaching samuel lim math. haha! those sunday under his black. waaa.. =x alright, so alvin taught carrian in the end. haha! and carrian say it;s easy. yup, it's not difficult to understand. but it's still too early to say. haha.late for project meeting. ): i'm sorry ppl. personal problem. didnt want to add on to it. well, got me moody somehow. sigh. all my fault. yea, thanks yea. =( first time even suckerseah sms me, i didnt got hyper. i didnt smile to myself. well, i didnt. i was like didnt wanto talk somehow. thankyou yvonne, she tried to ask me wad happen. thanks.well, no comment = no comment. i dunno wad i wanto say. but i'm sure, i found the answer that i have been looking for. to continue or not. i decided to end it. not for mr koh this time, not for anyone but for myself. i realise, i have been foolish to be taken in to al your sweet talkings. yup, thanks for all those memories, i wun say you gave me the happiest moments in my life. but somehow, you tried to make me feel loved. i felt loved at first. den follow by heartache and insecure. there isnt love between us. i should say, it all my wishful thinking or it's your thinking. i have no idea. people say i fall for godpa. i know i didnt and the love for you and him are different. why on earth say you love me when you dun. sigh. i'm the foolish one tht allow history repeat. i shouldnt even agree to patch up. yeap, we shouldnt in the first place. sigh. i dunno wad else to say. things wasnt going smoothly and i cant allow you to affect my mood anymore. i felt for lost. for the fisrt time, i'm hurt yet, i didnt turn to godpa. yeap, perhaps, like wad he say, i must learn how to be independence and i really dun dare to let him know wad happen. somehow, everything turn into nightmare. i wil lwait for you back from KL and tell you all this, maybe i rather you are the one who dump me instad. at least, i know how to react. sigh. i dunno.well, godpa, you dunno wad the hell happen for sure. mel sms me say he wasnt in a good mood. scolded them again. ohwell, i miss him can. i realyl have no more time to be back to look for him. i guess, he most prob will stay in GR. well, mr seah smsed me. (: he was asking if i enjoyed sat. yea. sure you gave me such a 'memorable' one. haha. i think he must be betrayed me to godpa la. showing my video,. omg. x= i will kill him. haha! well, off to do some reaserch and stuff den i must sleep. i'm so damn tired today. yes i'm. politics? shiat it. why others will always be much better off, compared to me. dinner with nysa and bf-khai. (: it's so fun. bf wads like saying abt all those funny things we did in sec2. damn it man, throw my face, i didnt realised i'm tht evil. well, banner competition is great. i miss it. (: i miss those times. really. omg, it gonnab egreat if all of them came over to shatec. hahah!i miss those time badly, yea. we will stay back even after torturing session by godpa. wondering how he's. (: i miss him too. tkc. tml school = sucks. omg. i dun like it. i hate it. well, wad to do. endure. okok. i try. (:
