`` To See PANDA in China.
`` South Africa Trip.
`` Back To Cambodia.
`` HOLIDAYS! (:
`` plenty of MONEY.
`` get my diploma.
`` BURBERRY bag.
`` WONDERFUL 21st B'DAE
alright. another post for the day. cos basicall i got nothing better to do and i'm freaking hot now. hot?! lol, in the sense of the stupid zhu tou weather. hahaha.. went to meet mel mel tan just now. and also, just nice saw tanbeilin. wah, seniors meet up sey. haha. so chat and eat mac with mel. she treat me. LOL. but i threw 3 nuggets give her. too full liao. dunno how come like tht. and she pass me the prsent she got for me. like wow lar.. it have been so long since someone try to do funny things to make me cheer up. guess wad she did, she buy 7 packets of skitters and a container den she put all into the container. lol. so sweet of her right? kind of think back to those time, when i love doing such things like her. LOL. thankyou melissa. you make my day great. i didnt share the sweet with my brother. LOL. he keep snatching it. haha. i love my brother too.
well, daddy got me back to help for art fiesta. actually not much helping, just guiding them along. at tht point of time, i feel like, not too bad, at least got smth to do but then, thinking of need to see 'him' suddenly, i'm thinking of ways to hide. i dunno how come just dun feel like going back at this point of time. i admit i miss all of them. ;( dunno. ahhhh, thinking of ways to walk tht can aviod seeing him. anyway, i can always hide wad. LOL. so be it. since i already told daddy i will be back, i will be back for him. looking at he's panicking about the hall events really make me feel so down. ;( last time, daddy does worry but it's just not like tht. ahhh, daddy, i tot he's off to course but then, sorry. ahhh, i will go lar. but then but then but then...... wad the hell. tanpeiching! can you jst dun behave like tht. i dunno lar. I DUN FEEL LIKE STEPPING BACK TO GR. yes, i claim i love it. but so wad. it's really no meaning. and i know he doesnt like seeing my face in GR so for wad going back making myself suffer. alright. i will visit mr ong and gang then. ;( how come it turn out to be like tht. i dunno. ;( ;( ;( i dun feel happy right now. lalala..
ok, ms tan say she think she know why 'he' doesnt want to see me and telling me tht it's her guess. 'he' didnt tell her wadsoever. oh, is it? den in the end, she say there's nth. obviously there is something. actually, i really wanted to smsed and ask 'him' did i ever offended him. ohwell, treat him good. but for fuck. he treat me like .. hmm, no comments. so ms tan and i was chatting through msn:
me : dunno why i just dun feell ike going back le.. ms tan: cos you scare m.k doesnt wanto see you. me : maybe ba,i didnt intend to see him anyway. ms tan: sure or not? me: maybe last time, i will find myself lying. but now.. dunno. the feeling is tht i didnt wanto step in anymore. ms tan: actually i think i know why he doesnt want to see you. me: wad. ms tan: nothing.
it's kind of pissing me off. but then, it's alright. wad if it's gonna be a bad news to me. haha. can i ever take it. i guess ms tan kind of know i got emo and tend to act strong easily so hurtful things is better to keep from me. ohwell, i didnt know wad's the reason. as much as i wanted to know, i'm afriad of facing the ugly truth. so wad. i really told myself, so wad if i have done so much in his life. t him i'm jsut nothing. daddy and superseah treat me far more better. at least, they dun ask me to shut up when i wanted to talk to them. awww, i miss daddy at this very moment. it turn out to be fear. peiching, got fear. it sound funny.
told mel abt the compo i wrote during mr hang class. aww, it been so long the title is 'bei yin' well, i wrote abt mk and it sound so funny. i rmb he injured his back or smth and he carry on having this remedial with us. it turn out to be so memorable cos really of his'bei yin' i saw him trying to use his left hand to hold the marker on board and right hand on his back. it sound funny tht actually i notice this, but then, i realised tht he's in pain and trying to teach us everything til 6pm. no MC, no skipping of lesson unless he got urgent stuff to handle. fevers, headaches.. the panadol will goes to his solution. somehow, at tht point of time, he is someone matter so much and so great to me. but now, seriously. wad happen even i myself didnt know.
actually didnt plan to go back til the 9th. but then, since art fest is coming, just go down and give daddy a helping hand. i pity him tht he have to start all over again. somehow, it is me who didnt help him to pass down to the juniors. ohwell, sorry daddy. last year at this day, we was doing amth in AVA. funny. i find it so. after 365days, i actually didnt feel like seeing him. ohh, is it? i dunno. but ms tan sentence and stuff keep repeating in my mind. i cant help but keep asking myself, how come he doesnt want to see me. but then, wad if the fact is not something i feel like hearing. am i going to cry like crazy like in the past. perhaps. i dunno. well, love you ppl. i'm still very looking forward to rach arrival and class gathering. hmm, it gonnab e cool. before i set myself back to be in the hell of shatec. i gonna be a loner? maybe. lol. =)
dun worry, i will still smile and behave like mad. i miss my juniors. perhaps, they will be the reasons, why i will go back. believe it or not whether i'm going to avoid mk or not. i got no ideas wad going to happen. maybe just smile and i will walk away, or maybe i will choose to use optional exit and stairs or maybe, i will just ignore. i really dunno how to handle my moodo n tht day. give me time. he choose to ignore me. i doubt he know how to react too. just hope any kind soul will let him know i will be back, and he can get ready to avoid too, so things wun get into my way. wow, thinking of using walkie talkie, simply = cool. i love it. haha. tkc ppl. let's wait patiently for the arrival of rach. HAHA~
