♥am i really turning to a loner?
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(: finally tomorrow will be our national day. ohwell, one year ago we was doing stupid things on stage. ohmy! =x and today they are laughing at me. school was as usual. no much comment. i cant say i love it either i can say i dislike it. just like being neutral should be better. hmm, nothing make me feel happier today beside the public holiday tml. i wanted to go town and i tot initially, we all say alright for outing tml and well, last minute it changes again. ): i couldnt balme them cos ppl are all busy nowadays but then, i just dun really like the idea of wasting my holiday again. it's like kinda pissed off. but i tot, they all say alright. sigh, forget it. all msg i recieved are highy negative. dun feel like mentioning or stuff. ltr caused conflict again. somehow, i feel i'm kind of loner nowadays. hais. forget it. all not free, outing, this and tht. all those fucking bullshit, seriously, i have enough. but ohwell, nvm la. hmm, have been busy working this few days and i'm really tired and stuff. i dunno why. i was liek the first to rush out of school and off to work. so, paul! i didnt go and be a thieve ok! lol. he say i look tired must be be a thieve at night and wad steal laptop to sell. omg, i dun understand at all la. i didnt steal ok! hahaha! =) well, everyday going to school is a dread and all i look forward to is 4:30 to arrived and tht's it. i will be more than happy when time passed even faster. feeling completely different and i dun feel right. there are just some hidden politics in class which i wasnt aware abt it at all. well, no comment. neutral party is the best. (:well, this blog isnt safe to type out how i feel anymore. cos, there are more ppl who knew abt the URL then, the it will caused more misunderstanding again. lalala! i cant deny i'm unhappy abt some stuff in school. but then, it's part of life isnt it? so, forgive and forget i supposed. but i just hope, ppl feelings will be taken into consideration or rather be sensitive. i dun enjoy the idea of when one party initially agreed to something and change it without notifying others. i mean, wasnt we supposed to be like clear and stuff. and i also dun enjoyed working with ppl who are so solo-worker. i dunno. perhaps, we are jsut different. i also play a part by not voicing out howi feel but then, does voicing out really help? i doubt so. sigh! well, time faster passed. 2years and tht's it. cant believe tht godpa actually scolded me '*' irritating man! always like tht. grr. wanted some stuff from him and he say 'NO' and now, it's like i'm having so much trouble to look for daddy lee pictures in order to complete the teachers day gift for him. i kind of like the idea tht student got to vote their favourite teacher by a stalk of rose which will be put on sale tht day. and the rose will be given to the teacher on teachers' day. it would be great. (: i can imagine ms haryani grinning at therose i'm giving her. and ms tan's braces with a big wide smile. omg la! it gonna be so sweet to see teachers you loved haing many many many stalk of roses. if is last year, i will support it by buying 29 roses for mdm ho. haha! my classmates will always have to go with my crazy plan. awww, i miss it when i 'forced' or rather encourage them to buy the heart bus thingy. =x hahaha! we spend like more than $500 or stuff i think. we are really mad. omg.hmm, i 'm thinking if i should skip away my friday on teachers' day and go back to GR. but then, i was thinking if godpa found out, he isnt gonna be happy and he will nag again. teachers day and end with his scolding sound kinda pathetic. and the tot of passing the stupid guard put me off. haha. but then, if i dun go back it seem kind of heartless. and i wanted to see daddy and ppl. hmm, school gonna be so packed tht day with former students. i dun really wanted to go back. shall see how. maybe a steamboat or smth but i believe the idea gonna be call off again. so wad for? lalala! and one more thing is the anuual CIP trip to cambodia. this year is at nov. godpa say i;m allow to go provided i'm on holiday. but then, it super obviosu i'm, not on holiday. so he already say 'NO' i was just thinking, since it's after major exam. so not going for a few days is alright. but it's like 10 days trip? hmm, we will fly on monday and back on thursday. i doubt i have the stamina to go school after i touch down to singapore. ohwell, considering. taking leave to cambodia or not. but i surely going to get scolding one lor. ):lalala! i wun be updating so often. cos i will be working almost everyday. thinking of presentation, freak me off. i remember talking in front of class abt some very personal stuff ad i cried. i think i was talking abt the topic on friends or smth. haha! and ms yong got a shock out of her life. =x haha! well, and i panick whenever i make speeches. omg,. the nightmare speeches abt food and funfair. omg la! i wanted those pic on food and funfair. but i realised everyday we have been so busy working and planning, we didnt take photo. =x haha, oresentation. argh! can i dun do it. be brave girl. my eyel ids are getting heavier. i gonna go sleep now before i really turn bonkers. wahahas. studying tml ba. and thanks melissa we talk for like 4hrs on phone. both of us are mad. =x hahah! so much to talk about. i lovethis precious junior of mine,. yawn!~ i gonna sleep. i love godpa. hahaha! maybe jio him out tml. we haven finish gossiping. lalala. someone is just so irritating. haha. i wanted to do presents for mr lee. can i? haha! i'm a sucker. finally got my pay. wheewee! gonna get melissa and jia her present. omg, they always make me broke. =x haha. i love them. tkc ppl. HUGS*
