♥can i run with mr tan again?
well well well.. i haven been blogging for ytd. it got my hand itchy like duh!~ hahaha! finally, today is the end of the english prject. like finally. but my blazor too big. shuldnt have got the school one. LOL! i believe if kelson seah see, he gonna laugh til his teeth drop. supposingly, ytd is the kuku presentation but it drag til today. i was late like as usual.. andm y feet damn sore. ): i cant wait for friday for sister outing and thursday meeting my zhu tou mel mel.. but her exam is tml.. shant disturb her yet. lol. i feel kind of lonely in class nowadays. cant deny i used to say i'll be brave. but oh well, how nice, if i can talk freely to all of them. i have to learn to go toilet alone, walk home alone, take train alone. learning now. kinda hard to adapt but somehow, i guess, it just life. ohwell, finally, the stupid presentation is over. lalala! i'm so over the moon. but i will miss working with fung min and micky. at least, they wasnt tht mean during meeting. i still got chance to work with yvonne, yen ping, fadhli. wadever. i dun like school. x= haha. (:alright. i recieve mr tan email ytd. (: i was so happy can. he wrote this sentence which really make me think. ' remember those 2.4km we run together?now you are just doing a longer 2.4km run and this time round without your friends, teachers and me. you have to run alone. but you met new people when you are struggling to complete the run. what most important is not how fast you run during the start, but how you keep up your pace during the run. and the feeling when oyu reach your ending line. it's jus start of the run now, and you seem like giving up.' well, he dun wan me to give up. last time, he will just tell me how near i'm to my goals, how much more effort i need to put in to reach there. wad is waiting ahead of me. he always countdown the time. telling me:' just tht green dustbin, you see.... over there! siying nadxuan min are there. everyone is there. waiting for you. just a bit more to go.' why this time round, i have to run alone? i didnt want to do this marathon alone. but mr tan say' this is life maranthon. you have to complete somehow.' he make me wanted to be brave and strong. he tell me, i have to be brave and strong. cos i'm his students since sec2 and the one tht always wanted him to do 2.4km with. the one tht will always grab his hand tight when reaching the finish line. the one tht will always fake sick when nafa test is coming. yup. i remember his tanned hand, with the black watch, blue whiser and tht very encouraging smile. (: i miss all those. from the start we leave the school gate, down the slope, turn at the traffic light, reach the big long kang, all the way smooth. down the slope again den up the slope, we are about to reach. haha. he always got his ways to make me move. haha! and i'm always wilful by only wanting him but no one else to run with me for 2.4km. thanks mr tan. i realllyyy love you! (:lalala! i have been working with jia. =x so tiring. and thursday is tourism. hmm, as for econs, i know i couldnt really make it somehow. i'm thinking of tons of reason to bluff my godpa. wahahahs. =x joking la. i miss him kinda lots too. whoohooo!~ mel just told me abit abt teachers day celebration. omg, i guesss this year one gonna be a blast, somehow, it's the last year we gonna use the hall. wahahas! i couldnt make it back, i suppose. unless, applying for leave is the only way out. but i didnt wanto cramp like sardine in school, even though, it couldnt be a big problem for me to sneak into office and HOD rooms. but not so big i think. see how. i haven even do daddy and godpa present. i'm so tired. =x hahaha..ohya! (: today patricia ask me why i'm so lonely. this sentence was kind of sound funny to me at first but i realsie, ohya, why am i so lonely? i didnt even know why. it's kind of trgic to see me from last time so super noisy and irritating tht even mr soo, who have so much patient wanted to use maskign tape to tape my mouth. hahah! and the way i sing in class, can really drive mrs lim and ppl bonkers. the way i speak can make ms haryani blood boils like the cooking saucepans. omg, i miss all of them. but i can be rude when i really wanted to. like who i treat the NGs. haha! andi can be really polite when i want to.. like towards mr koh. =x and i can be really touched when i'm like mr tan.. i can be really quiet, when i want to, like now. (: sigh! to mr koh, daddy, suckerseah and ppl.. no one can ever believe, quiet can link with tanpeiching,. ohya, provided i'm in bad mood and to them tht's is call landmine. (: if can, turn back the time. jsut one more time throughout my 4years or rather, the last year.. i will be happy. and on the last day of last year, let me walk out of greenridge school gate, and elt the car knocked me now, and tht's a full stop towards my life. (: i dun need anything more. just last year and enjoyed the fun, real laughter, tears when leaving my school. yup, my school. the place i really wante to set my foot back into again. the place which make me strong. sigh. i'm no longer who i am. and ppl, dun doubt, perhaps, you are seeing a peiching who is really queit now. (: i wanted to have breakfast with godpa every saturday.. can i? love ya.
