♥i close my eys and i saw you. ):
108th post. (: today, i got no extra energy to go work. all i hope is to buried myself under the blanket of mine and yes, sleep and never ever wake up. i guess that would really be the great thing in the world. i dun have to face ppl i dislike. i dun have to act like i'm happy almost everyday. i dun have to forced myself to do things i dun like. yes, i dun have to. isnt this life? i have been moody or rather, i dunno wad is ahead of me. i just feel like so lost and really dunno wad to do. i so much wanted to go back to GR, on the teachers day. but something is pulling me back. i wanted to go back and pass them all those stuff i have done for them. i wanted to go back to give ms tan her, tulips and mrs lim her sunflower. i wanted to go back to sit in the staff room and ask ms tan to do my econs for me. yes, i wanted to go back. but then, the tot of being treated like an idiot outisde the gate. the tot of tht it wasnt my school anymore just make me feel low. sigh. the tot of i have to even register to go back. the tot of i need to queeze with the ex students just dun make me happier abit. it's just all thise reason, i have been thinking if i should go back. and i dunno how come, having to get another 'A' on friday, just make feel guilty. and godpa already know there shld be lesson on friday. didnt wanto dissapoint him anymore. yup, i really dunno wad to do. ): should i go back or not? ):well well well, i miss mdm ho. i'm kinda sad when i heard she is like been 'ill-treat' in sch. ): lala.. i was saying if shawn were to win campus superstar i will ponned school on friday. but then, ms tan askedm e not to. it's hard to explain to godpa. yup. it's very hard talking to old ppl who dun understand wad i'm doing for. i just dun like the feeling at any bits tht he refuse to reply my sms. lala. i need ice cream to destress again. omg, like as usual. i have been eating ice cream. unhappy means i must eat ice cream in the rain. (: the feeling just isnt nice at any bit for today. i wanto sleep. (:wad else. let me think. got to chiong out the present for godpa and daddy by today. i'm tired. very. yes! i dislike monday i hate it. i guess, i should just force myself back to sleep and without thinking abt anything. next week payday. it getting me excited. haha. =x i love havign pay. and i dunno why. lalala. i love myself to every bits. wakakakas. sleeping time. i dunno. confuse. skip or not. plse tell me. ):I LOVE SHAWN! and LIMLINJIA! HUGS!
