`` To See PANDA in China.
`` South Africa Trip.
`` Back To Cambodia.
`` HOLIDAYS! (:
`` plenty of MONEY.
`` get my diploma.
`` BURBERRY bag.
`` WONDERFUL 21st B'DAE
why do i feel like crying at this very instant. cos the truth reveal as how it's supposed to be or wad. i couldnt face the reality or should i say, i dun even know why am i feeling like tht at this point of time. it simply sucks. why on earth did i been treated like tht. taken for granted and yet being threw away again. sigh. i dun like it when i saw it.
how much i hope we can still talk like nobody business and everything. how much i hope we can to meet up with one another everyday. how much i hope, we can really conquer everything ahead of us again. i felt happy when you say you tried to contact me but to no valid. i dunno if it's pacifying me or wad. i'm happy to see you say, you didnt tried to avoid me. at the very least, i feel better. i keep telling the whole world, i seem to have forgtten you. but i realised, it isnt like wad i say. i think of you when i walk home alone. i think of you when i passby those places we used to go. i think of you whenever i sat alone in SV lrt station. why? i tot i say finish it up clean and possible? i tot we both agreed to left the past and look forward the future? but you can, i cant. i cant react when i saw the scene. i totally went blank and crazy.
i wanted to hug you like you were mine. but i know it's impossible now. i want to tell you everything tht i have in the whole wide world. i wanted to see you waiting for me everyday. i wanted you to come to my block and wait for me. but why? the truth isnt like wad i think. sigh. i was afriad to give it one more try. why do my heart felt a instant pain when you told me, you admit into hospital. why do my heartache when i saw you type the 'bye' at the conver. why? let it go peiching. it wun last. you knew it. but yet, you like to make yourself fall into it and make ppl around you speechless. why? ): i dunno. the truth hurt. the thing hurt. everything isnt like wad it's used to be. i though you were mine, i thought it gonna be forever. sigh. why let me go when you promise you never will. why say you like me, when i isnt even sure abt it. why? tanpeiching. get a life. you cant be indulging into the past like as if everything goes smoothly like you think. yes, you thought rach wun leave you, but she did. you tot ppl wun dislike you but they did. you thought you can get many friends in shatec, but you cant. you say you will change but you don't. you say you will forget him, buti t seem so impossible. yes, you are just a sucker. think of those people who cares for you can. sigh..
at this moment i cant. you enter my life, and leaving without saying a word. why everything come and go so fast. i feel terribly upset. i need a hug. i need comfort. i need someone to talk to. i need a shoulder to lean on. i need. sigh. 'think of ppl more worth it' yes, i hope i can. i am very unhappy. ): i hate it. i dislike the feeling tht he isnt mine anymore. the rest of you, leave me alone. it sucks. i' not interested in you or either you, you, you's world. i have my life to go on. i dun wish to heard anything anymore. leave me alone can. you thoughts, your feel, dun matter to me. yes it dun. it sucks a big time. i hate it. i hate this world. why wasnt i suppose to leave anytime. why? why let me suffer when i dun even want to. why can linjia get jeff? can can xm let andy fall deeply for her.. why can shirley make qi en go crazy, why? why can ppl all got those they like while i cant? why can all of them get someone who love them and someone they love and stay happily ever after. why? it sucks. it make me feel pathetic. why on earth did i ever fall for you. something so wrong feel so right all along.
wadever. everything is unfair. godpa, i need guidence, guide me out again. it driving me crazy. yea' let him go, he is not worth t.' i heard tons of time. but i cant practise. it's easier to say but why do i have to do it?
happilyeverafter.shitit.iknowiwillneverhaveit.
i want my sugar daddy to cheer me up right now. yes, i miss him alot. it's a different type of love. why cant ppl understand.
'it's good that you are happy, cos i see your smile it cheer me up.' -sugardaddy. thankyou daddy. i keep thinkig of wad you said. cos of you, i think of your smile and i smile. cos you say if i'm happy, you will be happier. and i brighten up your day. ohwell, at this very moment, i hope you were just next to me, telling me wad to do and scolding me to wake me up or even telling me jokes to cheer me up. daddy, all those sentences you once told me, seem just like yesterday. how i wish, we can just stay at tht point of time. so i will never be unhappy, cos i got you.
i want to eat ice cream in the rain. make my heart freeze. it might make me feel better. ):
