alright, randomly, i miss all this 10days in cambodia. how time fly. 3 year ago, i jst get to know, tht this place is actually so fun.

-when we are all ready to depart from spore. (:

-in angkor wat. history unfolds-

-our favourite activity. murderer or daidee.

-our fvourite too. climbing the stairs.

siying and me. =x

-^-^\/ mr chui adn AFC members.-

-my room mates during the first 7days.-

well. all this photo was like so difficult to be digged out from my folder and stuff. when i was only 15year old. haha. sec3. i look completely like a noob or smth. this is where everything actually began. where i actually know who is my co-hord ppl. haha. x= and those fun fun fun days we ever have. the short yet memorable 240hours in cambodia, siem reap. (: how time flies. it been so long already. this is the first time, where i know how fortunate i'm. the first time, i bacome a hard labour without any complaints and yet so happy. first time, leaving my family to this 3rd world country. first time to see there are actually ppl who are even less-fortunate than i'm. first time i know the real pleasure of sharing the happiness and first time, i saw ppl true colour and stuff. so many first time, it happen in cambodia. (: i never desire to go those expensive places which cost me a bomb and get me to buy many things. i cant deny, i love shopping, i do hope to go country like japan and stuff. but then, when i look at all this photo again, i rather go to this poorer country, to help those people in need. it's really indescribable the feeling of being there and letting you know for once, you are no longer a spoilt brat, but a useful person, who can build a playground, paint the walls with the other effort. and, the wonder of teamwork.

well, today school end kind of early, cos the last 2 lesson is econs. and looking at how we react, i guess, it's better to end early. i play with yuheng PSP. it so damn nice la. hahaha. den dunno how come, i didnt went for lunch, guess the breakfast is enough to make me feel super full. haha! shared the nata de coco with veneta and yvonne. hmm, sharing. (: it's nice to share. but sometime, soemthing which is very important to me, i will never share. haha. den slack awhile and fall asleep. tired. Zzz. (; i was practically busy copying all the notes tht i have left out for the past one week. argh. math was slacking too. integers, whole number, fraction. bring back my memories with mr seah.

i guess, paul was right. he ask me how come i look so tired or rather bored, no mood in class. it's true. and i told him, i dun feel happy at all being in school. i didnt think of godpa, but paul say it. he say godpa wont be there forever for me. well, it set me thinking for awhile. no matter wad, godpa will still leave me one fine day, by then.. how am i going to survived? he cant be there for me every second, every min. and even paul say so. i think i was just too relying on my godpa. as though, i will lost my way whenever i let go my hand off him. but i didnt think of how godpa feel. yup, he told me, he want me to grow up. be independence. ohwell, i say i will but i still clinch on so tight. i never wanted to walk out of my comfort zone, where there are so many ppl pampering me. but i realised, reality is cruel. i still think of the past, yes, think of it. but the fact is just tht i cant get back to those times. this is the fact, this is reality. i can still be pamper by them, regarding my ex classmates or my school teachers, but when i woke up, i will still have to put on the black and white uniform, back to shatec, no longer going for math. no more.

they say, choosing tourism as my subject, i should be able to adapt to changes. but am i? i grabbed on so tightly to godpa, afraid tht i will be lost in this new environment. but then, this shouldnt be the case. things hve change. it no longer the same. i'm no longer a greenridgean. he really have more nad more things to do, not only abt me. just now ms tan say she read my blog, and say tht, she feel, i still rely heavily on him too. everyone think the same. i thought i have change, i thought i didnt clinch on too tight. i thought everything wil lgo well. i thought it;s alright, to whine to him once in a while. i'm so wrong and i really have to learn now to let go the past. 1 year ever since i been annouce as graduated. i still couldnt let those past leave me. it's never easy. i can continue to come up with thousand lies to tell myself, godpa doesnt mind, but is this the true. i dunno too. sigh. lucky, is ms tan who read the blog, not godpa. if it was to be him, he must be thinking, i'm so not understanding anymore. ): well, sorry.

hmm, one more thing, ms tan also ask if i patch back. i dunno how to answer her too. sigh. yes, i did. and i really dun wan godpa to know abt this. please. well, i will be brave and tkc of myself and wun get myself bullied. sorry ms tan.

mr ong say he miss my noisiness (even, he didnt wanto admit.) say wanto check if i'm alive or stuff. liar. thankyou mr ong. (: father in law for life. daddy lee msut be busy with dance practise and stuff. ): i miss him alot too.

well, even though, i kind of straighten out my thinking tht i have been holding on too tight, but then, i'm still kind of loss. tired. sigh. spectrum2 is another headache. go or dun go? sigh. thanks ms tan, mr ong and mr seah. my beloved always. (: gtg sleep. yawns!~