`` To See PANDA in China.
`` South Africa Trip.
`` Back To Cambodia.
`` HOLIDAYS! (:
`` plenty of MONEY.
`` get my diploma.
`` BURBERRY bag.
`` WONDERFUL 21st B'DAE
i just reach home. went to music garage just now. is 'GA-RAGE' not 'GAR-BAGE' haha. well, everything is quite fun there. i dunno why i dun feel very uncomfortable there. the music make me happy. omg, the ppl there sing really well. (: especially the champion can. and be judge. now i know, how judge felt during greenridge idol. but i felt the MC (which are the ppl there) are so much better than our school mc. we should hire them instead of those sugi or wadever he is. tht one tht drive me and daddy bonkers. lol. and and and, the CEO is one of the member in superband. and the song they wrote on their own is really great. (: omg, i fall for their song there. HAHA, nice ppl there but they make me feel like i'm at a big music home or even youth park. like those places that teenagers loved to hang out in. slack and share the same passion, same mentality and stuff. nice! if we gonna have prom night or wadsoever, i will ask daddy to hire them instead of the previous one. x\
supposingly to bugis to acc ying celebrate birthday. brought her a bottle of perfume. ohgod, it cost us $50+ for a small bottle. but it's alright. for her, it's ok. (: cos we are sooo closed. haha. and she say we say her smelly, tht's why by for her. dun see so small bottle can, it smell damn nice and is damn ex. she thought air refresher. anyhow spray. LOl. anyway, we will have another surprise session for her. cos today went to eat long john. omg. HAHA~ and thanks for ppl who have been helping me to contact one another for the spectrum2 tickets. well, some cock up and stuff. pissed off but it's alright. finally all doen. jsut money in and submit we can all go for spectrum. wheewee. (:
and today, i didnt went to eat with uncle. cos as usual, he 'dua' me. no la, at abt 10+ he say he wanted to have some PRIVATE talk with the 2girls and it's not very good if i was to be there. ohwell, so be it. and he say he's really sorry abt it. actually, ytd night, i have somehow forecast tht, things wun really go smoothly. cos he didnt tell me where to meet and stuff. i was kinda irritated, but think back. he's still my uncle. so how long will i be angry with him? be it la. he say we will meet some other time. alright. let's see when is his 'some other time' then. spectrum tht day? i believe so. he will be darn busy to meet me. as cambodia preparation is on it's way. forget it. i shall seek other alternative to deliver the money to school without stepping into it. i know, my uncle say it's my school adn stuff and blah~ but who cares. i dun like my school anymore. i loved the old school tht is with all of us there. not now, all this look of the school. oh, wadever. and i jsut pissed tht, he only tell me this morning, he already should have the mindset to bring the two girls along and then, now he tell me all this rubbish. yaya, say i'm jealous or wadsoever. dislike his this particular action. everything last min. GRRR. but sitll, he's my uncle la. i shall pass it to sucker or ong if can. ):
well, my bed is calling me. i thought of emailing my mr tan. but i'm just so freaking tired now. and yes, i'm irritated today. ): but the music garage make me happy. the music is just so nice la. really good vocal of the guys. daddy sing as well too. if daddy know, i need lesser tickets now, he might kill me. scary. HAHA~ spectrum2, sucker.. i miss you too. i not gonna leave sucker alone tht night. irritating yea. and monday presentation, i have not got my stuff ready. i mean the point tht i gonna cover. ohgosh, but this is also the first presentation with alvin, wai shan, jie hui and leader, yu heng.. it gonna be fun. i hope so. lalala.
today plan will be staying at home and study my quality service. i need to secure a pass at least. i dunno why, it make me felt tht it's getting harder and harder to trust someone. sigh. and i used to say i love GR. but now, i didnt even wanted to step into it. ohwell, forget it. i got no much feeling towards school anymore. it's no longer the same. and ppl telling me why am i still supportive of school event, and i think evryone should know, if not for dady and godpa and the teachers gang, i will never wanto go there. and if not tht mdm heng got me into shatec, i wun be so supportive too. no wonder, mr tan say, once you owe ppl a 'ren qing' it's so hard to return. and, despite the fact tht ppl know the reason why i'm supportive, they still can call me free labour, and uncle dun care, he even say i'm a maid during camp. ohwell, it's a joke. to me, it's not funny. hurting yea. and he say i shouldnt care abt others thinking. oh is it? sigh!~ is it really that human tend to take those people who are good to them for granted? sometime, when i reflect on my own, i dunno wad motive or goals i have in life. it's getting tougher. wad i see ahead is just more and more projects, test, exams and more coming up and making me suffocate and drown in it. i'm tired. i wish to stop the life marathon right now.
mr tan, teach me, when will i see the path tht god set for me? and can i simply let you down by giving up my life marathon now. it's getting tough and more obstacles ahead. i cant even saw the ending. i wish to give up. yes, will i ever restart the whole marathon again? or just end it, without even any regrets. the rocks that making me fall again and again, and i find myself getting reluctant and more reluctant to even pick myself from where i fall. if one day, i choose to leave, will i ever let go those things that are so important to me? i dunno. and i guess, i need the motivation to make me pick myself up from where i fall hard again. this time round, i saw no helping hand, alone on the route, mr tan is not there, daddy is not there, no one is there. i'm alone. wad should i do now? sigh.
even with the sunlight, i find myself alone in the dark and cold place. god, led me out, let me find the path you have set for me ahead. save me. ):
