`` To See PANDA in China.
`` South Africa Trip.
`` Back To Cambodia.
`` HOLIDAYS! (:
`` plenty of MONEY.
`` get my diploma.
`` BURBERRY bag.
`` WONDERFUL 21st B'DAE
well.. school is kind of alright. not really a waste of time despite the fucking fact tht there is only CTIS &quality service. CTIS is a complete waste of my time. =x like there's nothing important to be discussed about. well, anyway, if i'm not wrong we will be going to terminal 3 for a visit and stuff. i will be visitng it soon or later. when i'm leaving singapore and taking budget airline. (: but i still prefer to do some community work. lalala. act only, i think so too. i prefer to do charity out of singapore. HAHA! =x well, mrs chew once told me, when there are still singaporean starving to death and i can still fly out of singapore and do the community service there. i'm totally obsessed with those 3rd world country ancient beauty and nature. (: those so-not-stress days and everyone is easily contented. those life, simple and happy. unlike singapore, everything is money. over there, i can use my hardwork to exchange for a meal or two. at least, i learn not to waste and be content with wad i have. but am i really practising wad i have learned? sigh. i wanto go to south africa if i ever have a chance. (: i will, one day.
today, GR is having promotion day. ohwell, dun be haolian can. ): why is it so fucking unfair. and ytd, they really have staff meeting. my suckerseah must be smsing with me during the meeting. so not focus. (: right now, i really cant foresee wad is ahead of me. wad plans do i have. none, it's over. i have nothing in my mind. wad my career will be. i took up tourism, but i dunno wad i ever plan to do with the cert. really going to IR to fight for those places of work. gosh, at this moment, i really hope time would stop and allow me to think through. sigh.
life is getting harder everyday. and i find myself losing my own sense and way out of this life. the life marathon that mr tan ask me to preserver . it's hard. really hard. everyday, my head swell and i got like thousand of stuff to finish up. it's damn tiring. ): i'm like busy yet not busy. i feel my life is incomplete. it's really lacking of everything i ever need. sigh.
i lost someone i loved. i lost someone who loved me. i lost my very trueself. i lost my used-to-befriends. i lost those smile that will usually seen on my face. i lost my happy family. i lost my interest. i lost my motivation. most importantly, i can feel..
i'm losing my uncle. ):
if you were me, how to walk out such an agony. teach me, bring me out from it. i do hope time will stop and i can catch up with everything that i need to do. i just wished, my uncle will know that, i'm unhappy this few days. i just want my life to be full of godpa, daddy, sucker, father in law and so many so them. i have no idea is it i offended my uncle or smth. ): at least, i still feel, he's important to me.
and i have lose someone how i thought i love him alot and he love me too. but things didnt turn out to be the same. ): why make me fall for you? wad plan have god ever plan for me? why will i ever cry for you. why let go of me once more. i have lost this battle badly. and this time round, i have to stand up on my own. no more, no more godpa telling me to be strong. no more friends being around me listen to my nonsense. no more.
call me relying on godpa, say i'm idiotic. say i'm mad. but i cant deny, i'm really obsessed in you. i can even dun care abt my godpa cos of you. this is the first time, i have fall badly. all we have to do now, is to love one another. can you just hold my hand again? can you let me know how much i meant to you? can you bring me together and conquer everything ahead of us? it's over. i know. give me time, i will let go.
all i want now is to pretend i'm sleeping or close my eyes forever. so i dun have to face all this ugly fact in reality. i just hope i cant see or heard anymore. everything around e bring an impact to my life. i lost badly this time.
TARO card, teach me wad i should do next. i used to have someone who love me. i used to have my godpa around me. i used to be happy and smiling almost everyday. i used to be super hyper in school. i used to do so many things which now i cant do a single thing.
