`` To See PANDA in China.
`` South Africa Trip.
`` Back To Cambodia.
`` HOLIDAYS! (:
`` plenty of MONEY.
`` get my diploma.
`` BURBERRY bag.
`` WONDERFUL 21st B'DAE
lesson ended real early today. (: cos the cancellation of QS as well as i need not attend math, so after compre, i went back home. didnt wanto stay longer. cos i miss my bed. LOL. =x and i'm really dragging myself to school. i wore slipper as well as i did not bring any bag with me. LOl. i'm so lazy bum bum la. hahah. but the one period is alright. not exactly one period. start at 9+ and end at 10am. (pls clap for me! finally, one period i turn up for school.) *clap clap clap*
DID I RECIEVE MELISSA TAN PHONE CALL YTD? OR WAS I DREAMING? lol. i think i did. she told me she got me alot of stuff. thankyou girl! i cant wait for you to be back. this whole week seem quite draggy. and it have been sometime i last went to bpp. i'm still considering which camera should i get? just read the review online about z10fd, there's not much positive comment. i didnt want those bulky one. and z100fd is quite ex. i like z10fd cos it's so small and compact. (: and it's quite handy if i bring it to my eoy of trip. and z5, it's kind of cheap now too. just that it's using XD card which i dun really like it. cos XD card is damn ex ok. ): if getting other brands i will go by installment plan most prob. if fgetting fuji camera, i will get from my company lor. sigh! one more month to decide which to get. (:
and and and, i think camera is useful when i'm going out too. i MUST get one la. lol. tonight melissa will be coming back but only reaching spore in the morning. 2am i think? i will be going to IMM tml. kiwi gonna be there. no worry. lol. happy! i wanted to go compass point but then, i know it wun la. cos they wil lsurely let others go there. who cares. nvm then. (: one more week have pass again~
after much thinking, i finally come up with a decision.
to you*, i think being friend is much more better. at least, the friendship will last longer right? hmm, i think i still isnt ready back to relationship again and i dun have so much time to commit myself into it. i realised all i want is just the most simple and happy life. but you and I have different point of view. how about the future if we decided to be back? can you promise, you can give me a good life? surely a 'NO', cos you isnt sure too. den why bother to be together now? at least, i know wad i expect and how much you can give me. we are totally in 2 different world. even we are together, can we conquer my uncle's view? he will give you hell, cos both of you are still in the same school. can you accept my friends as your own friends? can i accept your friend as my friends? i cant. can you stand the way i behave and how close i'm to the teachers? you cant. cos you dun like them. can you give me any promise, still, you cant. will we be happy like tht? being together for the sake of together. can your mum accept who i am? can my mum accept you. there's are just too much obstacles ahead. both of us are just like living in our own world in the past. didnt bother all this. i once told you all this, you say, we can conquer it together. can we? i just didnt want to face reality, same goes to you. you jolly well know uncle gonna give you hell yet, you dun bother. i cant afford to hurt him anymore. and i cant deny, he's important as well. i cant accept it this time same goes to next time, next next time. i cant accept a realationship that i have no confidence towards the future. i cant. you are nice to me, i cant deny. but let's be friends. (: we will be great friends alright. it's really hard to work this out. call me a sucker or wadever, i have no more courage to fight this out. leave me alone pls. i cant get a hang of it. forgive me. let's be brave, face the reality this time. (: we will be good friends. i promise.
lalala. daddy is back tonight. 5more days! and godpa coming back. same as father in law. (: hahaha! happy! and 32 more days! hey, JIe-MEI TEAM, daddy birthday coming. wad are we going to do? heeee. happy shalalala.
for the first time, i dun feel upset or like it's the end of the world. i believe, i have walk out from the agony. thanks! the memories belong to just two of us. let's start a new chapter. i'm proud of myself! godpa, see i didnt let you down this time.
godpa; it been ages since we last chat or smth. ): i know you expect me to know what's right and what's wrong. you are the best godpa in this 2years. (: thanks for everything you have once told me and make me move on.
1. thanks for telling me i'm brave an strong. 2. telling me i'm your precious gem. 3. wanting me to be independence. 4.the dog on my 16th birthday. 5. the nougats which you brought for ME! 6. the dinner at adam road. 7. the $1000+ BBQ. 8. the endless giving in to me, about the seoul garden lunch. 9. when i fall sick, you carry my bag! =x and acc me eat in canteen. 10. the endless nagging which make me know you care.
you are now far far away in cambodia. but then, this few days, think back, you left so much memories in my life. (: including the way that i rmb you ask me to SHUT UP! if w/o you and daddy or even other teachers, i believe i cant walk this far. the day we both are waiting for, is the day that i got my diploma and i rmb i promise you, i will make you the marriage witness during my wedding and celebrate every birthday with you. (: not only me! but joachim too. (: hurry back! awww, and i promise a big present if you get married. =x *secret* ahaha!
awwwww, lief is such a miserable btu at least, i have got friends! and i see another true colour of someone. stop BULLYING thsoe are weaker. yes, i am saying about YOU! dun turn around, it's YOU! no one else. ): we are supposed to be in a class, and you are afraid of ppl who are stronger but then, you bully the weak ones. omg! ( i saw my old reflection~) =x kidding. i'm much more better than YOU. lalala.
2 more weeks to EXAM! *clap* it means, i'm leaving like real soon. just about a month time. about 2 more weeks to daddy birthday too. *headache* ):
