♥i guess i'm thinking too much.
nvm, i wasnt really that tired after all. now its like 24thdec already. getting nearer and nearer to airport and stuff. kind of nervous as well as excited.
went out with the sister gang today. overall, fun. i miss them for sure. and those crazy and sotty days we used to spend together. but then, just something make me sit back and think through if really everlasting exist.
wasnt tht well-planned after all. we supposed to go to seoul garden, but weekend it's kind of ex too. ): den off to eat at billy bombers. not tht fantastic after all. ): i think there isnt anymore place which is more suitable than yuki yaki. haha.
some kind of breakdown in communication in BB, but things went well after tht i think. and we shop aimlessly and stuff. brought min a tinkerbell balloon. which i have been craving for it all this while. abit paiseh, but still cute. (: hope she enjoy after all.
just some self reflection here and seriously i'm not blaming anyone. maybe is due to this is the first time we meet up after such a long time and i realised, the feeling as well as the telepathy tht we used to have isnt there anymore. but still i enjoy being ith them. soemtime, we just run out of topic and sometime, it's kind of hard to make everyone go hyper and crazy. ): i dunno why, but i feel, it wasnt as good as in the past, perhaps, i asked for too much. i think so.
and next, when i'm being with min and ying, somehow i feel leftout, i's not their fault. but tht's how i feel. when there's only 3 of us, sometime, i couldnt see the picture or understand wad they are talking about. wad i can talk to them was just janice, alisa, connie, connie bf and some others tht i know in MG. sometime, they talk about ppl who i dunno. but i'm really thankful tht they regard me like one of them. just like even someone tht both of them know sms them something funny or stuff, they will show me even i did not know the sender. i dunno why, but maybe my ego just make me feel left out in those dance topic which seriously, i do not know how to cut into the conversation or laugh with them. i know it isnt their fault. cos they have this thing in common. but this few days, i was just thinking am i really lagging behind due to my working stuff and i didnt spend time with them. sigh. i dunno. but something which make me smile after all, is the sensitiveness they have towards me. they just treat me like as though i know the person and try to explain to me. i'm thankful tht at least, they didnt give up in the friendship or rather mentally kick me aside. maybe i have to do something to make all of us feel much more comfortable. i dunno. or perhaps, i'm just thinking too much. the 7 of us will still split into 2 somehow. dunno, but i love the 6 of them. i really do. just let it be maybe i have PMS or smth. i shan care. thanks anyway babes. i enjoy myself today. (:
went on to town. and just some usual gossiping and laughing with one another. ying&min went to bball and shirley went home. the 4 of us went to cine. haha. i'm leaving soon. like real soon. haha. i really hope i'm thinking too much. cos i cant afford to lose anyone of them anymore. really, they meant too much to me.
and next, tml going to ying new hse. hope i will have fun there. i know i will. it's just my sucker mentality tht is makeing me feel upset. i will get over it soon. cos we are still the 3 musketeers who know each other like very long. yes, VERY long, i believe it will go longER.
god, pls give me the power to make it back to how i used to feel last time~
