♥god, tell me i'm thinking too much.
another post for another brand new day. before i start anything, today is simply a darn sway day for me. like sheesh! i have never encounter multiply sway-ness before. ): and yes, only for TODAY.- i only realised i forgot my scarf after i reached south view!
- only until class, i realised, i forgot my nametag as well. damn it!
- i got scolded for NOTHING by VT. except yes, for the grooming.
- i got kind of lowest for my PMS among my group.
- my heels broke without a fucking reason and i have to wear slipper. ):
- i got so super sway that, after i change seat with waishan, less than 3mins, YES! 3minutes! the bitch start calling em to ans question, which all our paper was BLANK!
- and she got mad over the grooming like duh!~ and start warning me.
- next, she say whoever kind soul is giving me answer will not be able to leave! _l_
- and then.. until TG, i got DP for nothing. just becos bitch feel i'm too noisy and she thought i'm waishan. lol. sian.
i cant imagine i got so many bullets in one day. sigh! sway! and yes, thanks to ppl who is laughing over it. it isnt funny at all. pray hard tml lesson is just short and sweet. cos i'll be meeting my darling sisters and my dear. (:maybe going esplanade tml. no tuition! yippeee! i'm just so overjoy about this fact. lol. 2days didnt meet up with dear. omg, i feel so sian right now. ): alot alot alot of things went through my mind just now.wondering if all this were reality or illusion. like what yuheng say, i'm those that really commit myself too much. i'm so afriad that one day, i'll lose him and that's it. i have no idea how i will survived and stuff. just merely this few days, i got so attached to him. waiting for him to call even i'm really tired. smiling like an idiot when i received his sms. talking about anything under the sun when he call. when he say he's not feeling well, it sound like, i'm the one not feeling well. regardless how tired i was, i still want to accompany him to talk. he have play an important part of my life. and seriously, i just love him too much. i hope all this wasnt a prank or smth, cos i'll really go mad and crazy.just now i was just too stress about so much thing and he told me if i'm unhappy, just vent it on him but not my tuition kids. and he say he understand what on earth happen and why i felt this way. i dont know why, he seem like really too nice, too nice until i dont know why he have chose me. i hate those time when we quarrel. i dsilike those time when he just got moody. it hurt too much, far too much.yup, he's right. we shouldnt care how long we will be together. just cherish each day we spend together with one another. and yes, the realtionship need both party help. he touched me greatly when he say he have plan for the future. yes, sometime, i know it's unrealistic. but who cares. i love it. i really want to be with him. whenever he talk about the past, even though, i pretend i dont mind, but actually, my heart ache alot. why did others treat him like tht? why cant everyone put in a little effort to prevent hurting one another. ): i'm worry. worried one day, it's gone. if one day, all this will come to an end, i rather the time freeze at this moment. sigh.too much emo-ing during first few lesson. i guess i think too much. i worry too much. i dont know. well, i hope tml turn out well. no quarrel and nothing. i planning to go town to get my heels and something. _l_ after return all the money that i have once borrowed, broke like sheesh again. _l_ whatever. dont mind eating nothing and get those thing. surprise. well, i really miss him too much. ):sheesh! godpa birthday next. stress! how to buy godpa present? sian 1/2. well, still, we must celebrate. and wongwaishan birthday too. haha.i somehow felt, i'm the one irritate him today. calling and smsing. i worry when i called, he's busy. and i dont like it. whatever. give and take. i cant always be the one taking. awwww!~ i love my dear. and i really do. god, please dont take him away from me. if he need to be gone one day, take me not him. so i wont live to suffered alone. i'm willing to give up anything in exchange for him. ):
all i want and ever need is YOU, YOU and still YOU.fcuk off bitch. you spoil my day!
