♥he have become part of my life.
proudly present, how jialat my heels was...
i didnt went to school. lol. and i received wongwaishan, tanyuheng, daniel and jeanie calls. haha! yes, i'm not going school but i miss my cliques alot. LOL. (: super love! well, i'm sorry, cos ytd we went out til nearly 2am like this! haha. i'm just superb tired. lazy la. heard norman cancel his lesson. ohwell, wadever. haha. finally i paid my school fees yesterday. ohwell! (: lalala.well, just less than 24hours, so much thing happen. dear and i quarrel for 2time. yes, 2 time. i dont mean it but he dont mean it too. ): both was kind of worst. and this is the first time, both of us were so angry and stuff. i think, he wasnt angry with me. just that upset about what i have said. yes, again, i said things without going through my brains.yesterday were fun! i meet up with lim kopi and she got herself with short hair~ refreshing look. lol. den she went accompanying me to buy the cuffing for dear. Lol. and i think overall dear like it alot la. haha! and then, while waiting for tansiying, we went over to cine to get my makeup stuff. =/ haha. spend spend spend! =x den wait for ying at cine and we have our official 'breakfast' today. haha. the rice sucks man! ): yucks! so disgusting.
then went over to heeren to get my heels. LOL. =x lim was shocked that my heels broke until like that. ohya, and thanks to elieen and vanessa. they actually try to fixed it back for me. thankyou girls! and then camwhore awhile, and we walk to lucky plaza cos dear ask me to help him buy a shirt as his was splash with tea. and ying suggested topshop. yes, and i spend money again. i'm just sooo broke now. )): den dear came to meet me up at tang, but i was quite touched when he ask me to wait for him in the tunnel cos it's raining and i have 2friends with me. lol. so we walk to shaw house and stuff. decided to watch movie actually i know dear wanted to catcch jumper so much. lol. dear, we will watch it the next time can.
lim kopi say he's too good to me which will led to i became so pamper again. lol. i told dear but he say that his responsibility. lol. so sweet! (: den the timing just wasnt good enough. so we walk back to cine again. haha. this time round we decided to watch juno! but then, left with first 3rows. and we brought fool's gold instead. i dont even know that there's this show. alright. not that fantastic afterall. haha. i was like dozing off. \xwell, while waiting for the show to start, we slack in the kopitiam. and yes, actually everything goes alright, but just due to what i say again. yes, again! ): he got so fed up. yes, dear was just upset that i still refuse to tell others that he's so close to me. in other words recognized him as my bf. it's not like tht, i just dont want others to feel like i'm showing off or smth. let them find out themselves. i dont care how others think. all i want is to have you and still you.hmm, i didnt want to shout at him or be shouted by him infront of my sisters, so we went to other places to talk it out. and then, things didnt goes well, this is the first time he raise his voice not because he is angry, but he's upset. this is the first time, he used 'fcuking' on me. not on me actually, on the DS lite. and this is the first time, he walk off and letting go of my hand. i dont know why. at that moment, i felt so loss. i wanted to walk behind him, but i can sense he's just too upset. i thought he will turn back to grab my hand, but he didnt. he walk and down the escalator. too sad to be true. next thing, i walk out of cine. too confuse to do anything. sit outside of cine. i waited for him. 1 minute, 2 mintues he still didnt come. i thought he really dont want me anymore. and just when i was about to broke down, he appear and hug me. thanks dear. i was so afriad you didnt want me anymore. i promise you, the last time. i wont do such things to hurt you anymore. i know he didnt mean it either.
well, went back to look for ying and lim. as usual, they thought i will be crying and come back. haha. i didnt. i was smiling. (: cos i know he was just too important to me. with him around, i'm ready to face any setback. and then we went on for movie. haha. when the movie end, lim told me the couple infront of me was soclding me. i was like huh? i dont even know. lol. and dear told me the whole story. ohwell!~haha. so we went on to istana park. (: and he just told me everything. i cant deny that when he say that one of the ring is from his EX and they nearly got engaged, i was on the verge of crying again. but dear say from today onwards, he will take out all those rings. and i'm the one that can make him take out that ring. (: wheeweeE! and he put one of the ring that was he brought himself for very long, and put onto the necklace that we each have. the one pair one! haha. and he say when he feel i'm ready or when i feel i'm ready, jsut wear it. ohwell.. i'm looking forward the one day. thankyou dear.whatever he say just touches my heart. i couldnt describe how important he was to me now. endless magic trick, endless cheering up. i know i'm just too pamper. he say, he will give in. and he was really giving in to me every single time. i know forever dont exist, but every single day when i woke up knowing that you still belong to me, just make up my day. thankyou my dear. you are just too good to be true. and yup, he fold a paper rose for me. yes, even though it's paper, but it's the thought that count.ohya, big news! my ying is attach too. (: can sense her happiness. may all of us all feel that happiness everyday. yes, everyday. guess min is the one coming up next. haha. on the other hand, lim, regardless what on earth going to happen, you are just as important as anything to me too.i know ying felt happy everyday. i know she's ready to give up her anything just to be with him. i guess one common thing among the 7sisters, we will do anything for our another partner. and yes, anything. (:super touch! dear cancel his Melbourne trip to spend his birthday with me. as well as change his tickets to 2pair of tickets to elsewhere. he say we will be going thailand. i was super happy when i know i can go oversea with him. (: then he say, if i wanted to go cambodia, he dont mind too. omg! too good to be true! haha. but then, i dont intend to go cambodia. perhaps i'm just back. actually, up to him as long as the days is spend with him, i dont mind. yes, dont mind anything. just to be with him, (: i love him too much. yes too much to let go.dear, never ever let go of my hands again. i think of you the entire day. i dream of you when i sleep, i talk to my friends about you all the time. i cant lose you. see, how important you are to me. ohwell. i love you. too much!~ it's all about loving you.
i'm learning to love him more.
