♥what bring us together. what make us apart?
well, just finish work from imm. tired tired tired. ): and i got so pissed at someone just now. dear as usual came to fetch me from work, download games for my psp. and he told me, he have placed a order for DS lite red. *touched* and due to red is limited edition, he called his friends up and ask them to look for it. (: thankyou dear.and as usual, i wasnt at all understanding again, i show him my black face this evening. same old reason, tired&hungry. but he didnt mind. instead, he told me i should vent it on him as long as i felt happier after tht. during afternoon, we quarreled again. didnt want to start it, but i just cant control myself. ): i was a bitch at tht point of time. scream and giving attitude answer is all i can do and like forever, he gave in. yes, always gave in to this pamper girlfriend. sigh. sorry sorry sorry dear.he send me home but on the way home, we laughed and smile like mad. but then, all my fault again, i cause the fire. )): dont know wad the hell we were talking about, i say i love A. damn it. it was supposed to be a joke, but dear always warn me, he took both of our r/s very seriously. but i jsut keep joking about it. yes, seem like i didnt cherish him enough. am i? or i just wasnt a good girlfriend?many things went through my mind just now. it hurt alot. i felt i wasnt a good girlfriend anymore or perhaps, i wasnt at all in the beginning. whenever things happen, i show him all the attitude i ever have. when i am unhappy about my stuff, i vent it on him. when i got so mad with other things, i just shout at him. and he, will always be there for me. never ever let go or even shouted back to me. today, he tried to cheer me up,. i can feel he was damn pissed after a long day yet i was still throwing tantrum. but after we talk things out, it goes fine. thankyou dear.
tribute to my magician;dear, all this while i know i just wasnt good enough. talking about stuff without thinking if it might hurt you. shouting at you when i just feel like it. telling you off when i'm unhappy. hanging up phone when i was in fault. i know you have been rather tolerance towards me and seriously, i appreciate that. despite the fact or anything, you still got me a anklet and giving me your one and only necklace. i'm happy to be with you and i really hope i can be with you til forever. i know i still cant cherish you like others do, i might not be as well as ur ex-gf, but i promise, gimme sometime, i will change. jsut because i say i want to have a DS lite, you got it for me after a few days. just because i grumble that i want a handphone strap and you got it for me too. just because i wanted battery and memory cards, you get for me too. dear, i know the battery is ex and i'm really glad, you took all my words seriously, i have never wanted to let go of my hand. i know i'm just so not good enough for you. yet, you still bother to be with me. fetching me from tampines to cck and back to tampines again. everything you have done for me i will never ever forget. just because i wanted more new games, you bring ur whole laptop out to meet me, so download already, i can bring psp back home to play. thankyou dear, you have been a important part of my life. yes, MY LIFE.when you first gave me the anklet, i was super happy. (: when you told me you wanted to perform magic for me, i am also very happy. when you say never ever let go your hand, i told myself, i will never let you go. just because, you meant too much to me. i shouldnt judge you on your past, shouldnt listen to ppl with other point of view, i should believe you and myself. but i always let you down. when you wear the necklace for me, i told myself, i will never ever take it out unless there are huge reason that can break us apart. thankyou for showering your care and love for me all this while. if not for you, i will never ever move on. you are my one and only. i just want to lean on you and listen to your heart beat. i just want to hold your hand, just like you will never let go mine. i want to be with you, until we both really have to say goodbye. i dont care what gonna happen in future, i love you and i meant wad i say. i got too much to tell you, tht's why i ask you to read. just have faith in me and you. cos, like you say.. the r/s wont work well without anyone of us. thankyou dear.it's long. but you ppl can skip it. LOL. =x yawns, i'm sleepy already. waiting for dear call. i love him and i simply do.
