♥nothing. i'm just nothing.
ifonlylifewouldbepeacefulandloving.well, i was like trying to sit down and study really hard. but then, only some go in. i know if i flunk tml paper, i deserve it. i understand too. this sem really suck big time. nothing going smoothly at all. there gone all my mood of studying and working. it just so irritating! ):i know it's wrong of me again to be so into mahjong, but that's something i cant do without with. i admit i cant resist temptation. all the temptation seem too good to be true and i just want to sit down and laugh my heart out with those sisters of mine. i know tml is the fucking exam. why? it's not that i didnt want to listen to you or anything, it's just simply because, i cant resist it. i told myself, i shouldnt go, but yet, my heart was thinking about the mahjong invitation. i know all this is once again my fault.i should thank dear for being nice and allowing me to go. perhaps, he have enough of my whinning about tht one or two marks of failing in exam. perhaps, he got so irritated of my mahjonging therapy. maybe he just feel he couldnt control me anymore. i wont whin this time. cos i know how it felt to be whin-ed at. i should try putting him into my shoe.stop those useless quarreling. he have been really trying his best to give in and loving me for who i am. i cant deny the fact that i;m tired. really exhausted. not only mahjong drew me to xm house but also one more simple reason that he will not know, i just wanted to ask min for design ideas for the present. i know this seem to be endless excuses, but still the reason fall back to mahjong. i dont deny it partly cos of that too.i can feel he's tired of my childish and yet not understanding behavior. i can understand he dont feel good about it. but still, just 3 wrods that make me force open my eyelid to photoshop his surprised and dragging myself out of bed to chat with him on phone is just simply because,I LOVE YOU.
