well, somehow i felt i'm just so not good enough. ): ytd dear called me in the middle of night, but i'm really very tired, that's why i show him attitude and tantrum. i felt bad. very bad. i didnt mean to say all those nasty stuff. but i'm really pissed off. just because, i been woke up by him during my sleep. i know it's mean of me and i shouldnt treat him like this, but i just cant control myself. i didnt know why i behave in this manner. wth, i am really a bitch. but he, keep apologizing and giving in. why on earth are there someone so nice to me. i'm sorry dear i hurt you once again. ):
just to let him know i love him and i know i not going to leave him just like this. sometime, i admit i was fustrated and i vent it on him but seriously, i dont mean it. i regret whenever i done such thing. sigh. he have been super nice, the nicest bf i ever have. he really love me more than i love him. i dont mind giving up my life for him, cos i know this life, he's too important to me. dear, dont ever felt i'm leaving you, cos i wont. i already say, i will leave unless u did something which i reall couldnt forgive you. and i know you will never hurt me, that's why. i wont leave you. thankyou dear. just belive in me and have confident in yourself, we are together and we will work things out. i might be younger but not as though as i'm childish to take our relationship as a joke. since i promised and want to be with you, i will and i wont just leave like tht without a reason. simply, i love you. i'm sorry. forgive me.
ytd and today went dinner with family. this whole week it's like so family gathering. lol. dear went to have dinner with my family already. lol. and everything is really nice. LOL!~ i have nice dinner and nice family bonding. wheewee. and L.T simply keep asking and interview him. understandable, anyway, he's my first BF tht i ever brought back. and i really wanted to be with him. (:
today dinner with mum. and mummy was asking where is he? lol. ask me to bring and show him. she say as long as dear can love me, it's alright and dont gamble. well, i know dear dont gamble. and i can feel dear really love me alot. whoohoo. dinner was great. mum treat this time. yawns. super tired. lol.
currently masking and stuff. lol. cool adn feeling great. i love putting on mask. new hobby dude. went out with lim kopi todya. brought something for the upcoming event. haha. and i have to start now before the day is getting nearer. whoohoo. what's on for tml? i dont know. PT? i hate it.
hmm, going to sleep and get ready for PT tml. guess i will fail. the fucking fold stuff. i will die. ): table setting still sound alright.
one day didnt meet dear, i felt so uneasy. ): i miss him so much. awwww... why do we have to stay so far? dear having headache. ): i love him and i really do. muacks. all i want to is be with you.
it's still about him.
