♥youneverknow.idontfeelgood.
all along, i thought i'm the most fortunate one. i thought i have been really strong to walk through all this. i thought all this is just a nightmare that just happen rarely in my dream. i keep hiding myself away from the truth. making myself packed with more and more stuff that i dont even like doing. waking up early just because, i couldnt close my eyes anymore. i been running away from problems. all those problems that seem like i shouldnt even get it. god is never fair. i didnt hurt anyone before, but why on earth, this happen to me. i dont understand.
yesterday was an eventful day. despite wad C say, i have been trying to forget about it. i didnt even want to mention about anything. but still, things just go on and on like this. i was enjoying myself, really. enjoying! with my primary cliques and yogurt as well as dear, but why, why must you be so cruel to remind me about wad C say. i'm tired, i'm scare. i always want to walk this long journey with you. it's nothing about wad C say have been affecting me, in fact, wad C say i have been trying hard to forget and ignore, but then, in the process of the hardship, you keep reminding me. keep asking me about what she say. i dont want to answer, i dont know what to answer. really. i promised you this shall be our own story, but yet, you ask me about after wad i heard, how will i react. why is it so hard? god, pls spare me this time. i'm tired, real tired after running away from reality. just leave me alone, just let me be with him. just let me do what i want. just stop all those others far away from me. i dont need C comment. i dont need to get affected. i'm not affected. just that whenever you ask me about C, it just as though my heart was really been pierce. it hurt, far too much. i keep trying hard to not drop a single tear, it hurt. everytime you ask, it hurtng inside. all i can do is just keep denying. cos same thing i know if i tell you, you will be hurt. but why whenever i was being fair to our r/ship, you have to be so cruel to ask me. god, give me more strength to win this battle. pls.
ijustwantedtotellyouthis2monthsisntinvain.ihavefallforyouandireallyloveyou.
it'snotyourfaultoaskmeabouthowifeelcosiknowuworryaboutittoo.iknow,
iknowyoulovemefartoomuch.givemethetrustthatiwillnotleaveyou.givemethe
strengthtomoveonlikeiusedto.givemetheenergytoputonarealsmileandlaughter.
idontneedanything,justthatyouwillbelieveinme.iwontleaveyouforwadshehavesay.
wheneveryoutoldme'iworryyoumight'thesentencewastooharsh.callmeacrybaby,
callmeaweak.idontcare.ijustwantedtobewithyou.
canyoujustdontaskmeabouthowifeelabtwadshesaid,idontknowhowtodenyoranswer.
heartacheandendlesstears.returnmemyusualsmile.
***yesterday was really fun. went to new york new york for our dinner with primary school cliques. it's always fun with yogurt and dear around. full-time entertainer. lol. went over to min house to play mahjong after that. yes, mahjong theraphy. for the first time, yogurt and min won like duh! =X awww!~ i dont care. i gonna play with yogurt again. this hidden tiger. lol. was basically cam-whoring the whole day. (: meeting up with the rest, catching up with how one another was right now was funny. it seem too good to be true that we are friends for 9years. omg. so, i did enjoy myself. haha. dear was taking care of me. was supposed to drink with them, but a big NO-NO! lol. was really tired. play til 3am and dear and i cab home. ohwell, it's fun. pictures with xm.school finally mark a break for us. just a week, but i wonder how will i spend it. whoohoo! this whole week didnt really talk to group members. missing them. whoohoo!~ and i'm really excited for our holiday. sleeping for the rest of my life. haha. (:***dear brought my our new baby, the DSlite, red~ wheewee. after modify and blah blah blah, he buy it for 400$. super addictive. haha. it's fun and i love it. thankyou dear. never failed to bring a smile on my face. thankyou for the DSlite. whoohoo!~ finally, the journey to tampines is never bored again. lol. got back my mp3 and he took back his ipod. lol. weird. i forgot how to use samsung already. lalala. looking at the DSlite, i must take care of it. lol. missing him and dear was sick after ytd late night. =x wanted to go down to tampines to look for him but i got work. lol.
below will be something about ARIES horoscope. (: his. lol.The Bottom Line
If your reputation is your top concern, revise your list. Put happiness on top!
In Detail
Do you want to live your life your own way, or do you want to figure out how other people expect you to live your life and then put all your energy into living up to what you think their ideal is? If your reputation is your top concern, where on your list of priorities would you put your happiness? Stop making choices based on how you will look in the eyes of others. That doesn't matter in the long run. Do something because it's right for you, today.------simplyjustleavemealone.iwillpickmyselfupagain.stoptheasking,itjusthurtmetoomuch.
