♥9 more days. I'M LOVING IT.
just 9 more days. well, life been rather busy nowadays. new start, new sem, new project. endless meeting and thinking about everything. ):i have no much time to update too. currently decide to stone myself in class instead of going out for break. i'm not feeling good.the feeling sucks. the mentality to control my own tears were hard. the sympathy from friends make me felt i'm pathetic. why? i felt rather wronged. i felt rather unhappy. i felt i'm tired of explaining myself. i felt, the feeling of been treated like this, the feeling was too hurt. too hard to accept.on the other hand, closest clique and buddy was taking good care of me. telling me i'm the most fortunate girl to found him. i have been rather evil and bad to him. and they told me i shouldnt be the one taking but must really learn how to give. it's hard for me to admit my mistake due to my growing enviroment.sometime, i'm really sick and tired of those shit. giving up? but still i hang on there. i know i can make it. but too much obtacles is making me losing all my fighting energy.looking at others, i find i'm fortunate. i know i'm fortunate. thanks to clique and buddy. i felt rather happy tht you ppl are like always taking care of me when i'm feeling down. (: and to dear, misunderstanding still occur, i'm loss for words. i dont know what to tell you.to everyone, it's just 9 more days. wheewee. i cant wait for tht day. i love spending my birthdays.lastly, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO KAILING! (:my sister. i love my 7 sisters. (:
