♥guide me out of those darkness.
tired.i'm really feeling tired right now. yes, not only physically but mentally. it's draining me out too. i really loss. too loss for words. too worry if anything bad willhappen. too tired of those argument. god must be making fun of me. he gave mea group of wonderful cliques, but it turn out to be like this. i need some time alone.i need some help from others. i need god to turn back to those times.they are important to be true. i dont wish to lose anyone of them. yes, anyone.not her, not him not all. why do all this happen at this point of time?why it happen just when we are close enough? why out of sudden,i felt, i'm losing it. losing my endurance, losing my laugher, losing my friend.let me off god, if only they can be how we are in the past. i dont mind giving up someyears of life span to exchanged for it. i'm tired. too tired. spare me.let us just be one.too much argument. so what if we are neutral party, so what. i couldnt leave her alone, cos she is important as my friend or rather, sisters. i couldnt neglect others.i hate being in the middle. i hate it. i hate it when i seem so useless that all thisshit have been dragging for far too long. i seem loss. i seem useless. i seem tired.i cant help anyone of them. i cant do anything to make any of them feel better.god, you make me enter shatec, but you make me go through all this.what are all this about? can you tell me. guide me out of such agony.spare me from all this upsetness. i cant take it any longer.i just wanted to have friends. but friends and friends still have problem. i have felt so loss and unhappy before. i guess i'm really lousy. will all this be back to normal? i doubt so,i have done what i could to save the friendship. but now, it's gone. really gone.leavemealoneforthetimebeing.ineedsometimetothink.
