the clock strike 12 and everything is back to it's ordinary places. perhaps i have been
in a illusion for too long. perhaps i have been dreaming all this while or rather, i took
what fairy godmother have done for me for granted.
in everyone's eye, i'm a princess and been treated like one eversince. i should have
nothing to compare and nothing to complain about cos yes, to them, i'm fortunate.
life is always unable to satisfy oneself for everything, and the one will ask for more.
one day, the clock strike 12, i return to my ordinary status. perhaps, after long time
of suffering and giving in, it explode one day. and yes, everything went different.
different from how i want it to be or how it should be. i'm tired of explaining myself.
of flaring top and in the end, i dont know what the fcuk i did that for. i'm so loss.
excuses i have been pacifying myself with. i dont know. contradict. too much
to say but i didnt know what to say. after arguement, what came to my mind is forget it.
since we will still need to be together after that.
never taken others feeling and point of view into consideration. i deserved all this.
i have never care about how his feel. no thankyou no sorry, no nothing.
i'm like back track to who i used to be in sec school. arragont and wanted things to go
my ways. except sorry, i dont know what to say anymore. never knew he suffer so
much despite others warning and advised, never know one day if losing him will cause so
much pain. never know crying for someone was really unbearable. never know, acting
like nothing happen is really so hard. he conquer my mind, my soul, my heart.
i have never loved someone so deeply before. i thought i'm strong? i thought, i thought.
all this while, neglecting him is all those shit. someone who never refuse my request.
someone who can go out in the midnight for my craving. someone who can just buy
anything i want. been treated like a princess, yet i didnt cherish it. beside sorry, i really
dont know what to tell him. never know that, when he's back to army, it just so hard to adapt.
projects and more projects piling up. i got no fcuking mood to do any. but still i have to.
just wanted to sit and rest my mind but i cant. and today, i spoilt my T10. god, kill
me pls. my heart super ache. ): argh!~ i'm a sucker. alvin's back tml. wheewee~ can we
just be like before. i love my LAO TECHNO. you are my beloved LT~
I AM MISSING THEM. ):
MY ONLY REGRET. ):
