`` To See PANDA in China.
`` South Africa Trip.
`` Back To Cambodia.
`` HOLIDAYS! (:
`` plenty of MONEY.
`` get my diploma.
`` BURBERRY bag.
`` WONDERFUL 21st B'DAE
it's just so hard to move on, it's just so difficult to let someone who is close to you know how you are feeling. too much quarrels for this couple of days. i know every quarrel is somehow, pulling us apart. i wanted to give up somehow, but something make me hang on there, his love and care that money cant be brought. its hurting to heard those screaming, it's making me tear-ing like nobody business. looking back at those photos, is it true that somehow, things will be different along the way. communication problems or it's just some misunderstanding? i dont know. i'm tired to defend myself. i'm sick of trying to explain things by things over and over again but still, i didnt wanto give up. i can feel his patient is running out this few days. perhaps, he's really exhausted during roadshow. i can understand. have been doing something for him, but still it seem like nothing compared to how much ppl have been giving me. i'm afraid, afraid of the days that i gonna survived without him. i dont know if this day will come, but i just hope it wont get near to me. cos this is the first time, i really love someone and really wanto do something for someone. say i'm selfish, say i'm anything. i really dont know what else to say to proved i really love him.
went to PC show to acc siying's mummy to get her canon ixus 860. (: nice! and we got lots of freebies. (kudos to dear!) i know it isnt easy to get so many free gifts. x= have some fun with the other 2. (: acc linjia at first den meet siying. so the 3 of us together with her parents went for bah kut teh. =D yummy! anyway, i'm tired after the tiff. even though we seem to be ok, but i know deep down, he dont feel nice.
dear, just do what you really feel like it. i wont bother anymore. i wont add stress to you anymore. just be happy. believe it or not, i'm not worry about if you got those for me. but i just hope you understand, it's time we start planning for the future. maybe you will still find me selfish for saying such things. it's alright, it's your thinking. i just hope we will have less quarrel and more time like in the past. this few days, i have been crying to sleep. either we quarrel if not other things happen to us. if i'm selfish, i'm sorry. i dont know what else i can do to make you happier. or perhaps, making myself disappear, you will be better. if you feel so, let me know. i didnt want to hurt you in anyway.
