♥i felt unhappy today. ):
sigh. even though the problem is over, but i cant help dwelling into it. i wasnt angry, perhaps i realised everything cant go my way. somehow i felt i have been taking everything for granted like wad he say and i assume everything will goes well. when i agreed to change shift, i never think of the consequences but just agreed as i wanted to go out and everything. but he tend to forgot i change shift for who and why do i ever agreed. i shouldnt have tot of changing cos i make waishan change together with me to morning shift an cos of this, i suggest a double date and cos of wad i suggest, she quarrel with hocky.when he shouted and rejected me at the first call, my heart sank. totally sank, cos i thought he will do anything to get me out of all this shit, but no, he scolded me for making him doing all this. but come to think of it, did you ever know doing back to back shift is really very tired. and if not for you, i wont want to change to morning shift as well. but yet, just helping me seem like a difficult task to do so. and then the first msg came, saying i shouted and scolded him. i was really lost tht time. i dont know who to turn to. maybe i rely too much on him, when problems came, i only thought of him. i dont know if i'm too much or what. seriously, i dont know. it hurt too much some time. was askign waishan, am i super poorthing and she say no. cos she insist she more poorthing. and when she tell hocky if he know why she change shift, he answer dont know. when i ask him if he know why i changed shift, he say if i cant change i should have let him know. i dont know. i feel so upset. i dont know.but then, at least he called and apologized and help in the end. i dont know what to say except thankyou. i hope u understand i change shift for you and if i dont i wonder when we can meet. sunday? and you never know working til night and the next day you wake up at 5am and work again. it's very tiring. i'm sick and tired of thsoe quarreling days. very tired. i dont know what else to say or maybe it's my fault to think tht everything will goes my way. i'm just so naive. sigh.i'm tired. tired of crying. off to bed. ): it's just a so unhappy day.
