`` To See PANDA in China.
`` South Africa Trip.
`` Back To Cambodia.
`` HOLIDAYS! (:
`` plenty of MONEY.
`` get my diploma.
`` BURBERRY bag.
`` WONDERFUL 21st B'DAE
totally moodless. saw something i shouldnt have seen it at all. my mind went totally blank. and my heartache too much. ): am i just simply too sensitive or what. i dont know. i dont know what else to think or say anymore. no one to understand how fcuking upset i felt right now. maybe i bother too much,. yes, must be i bother too much. i shouldnt have put care so much. blame it on my jealousy and petty-ness. i dont know. it totally hurt. forcing myself to stop crying but seem rather difficult. those words he said, knock me into some senses too, but sometime truth are hard to accept. i'm hurt, really hurt. ): yea, finally both of us understand, nothing gonna last for ever.
am i really so hard to pleased? i dont even know what i want. but i just couldnt get that incident off my mind. everytime i think of it, i just felt errr.. so not good. ): is there something that is lacking between us? trust? it's such a strong word. yup, he's right, i shouldnt have even invade into his privacy and it's his freedom and stuff. if i were him, i will say that too. never mind, i'll be ok soon. just need plenty of sleep to stop myself from thinking.
i was still so looking forward to watch Madagascar2 in the mid nov. but now, just feel like sleeping and do nothing, think about nothing. i'm such a failure, i believe so. i thought i'm so strong, but whenever i met with problems i just cry. )<>
not going to school tml, thurs and fri. well, school was short after all, have some fun and off we went for bubble tea as a clique. haha. been awhile since we does that. well, black called me up and asked if we girls wanna go rosette for dinner together. LOL. x= *hinting* so he still owe me my donuts. lol. lalala.. ytd jeanie brought fiesta cheesecake for me. yummy! i finished 1/4 of it. school was overall fun. next week we'll be having golf tournament. whoohoo!~
am i supposed to trust what i see or believe in the word 'trust'. i totally got no idea. my mind is a blank now and i just can feel my heart is aching. sigh. tell me what to do next, god.
