on the other hand. boyf is getting so sick of arguing with me, so whatever he did now was keeping quiet. which annoyed me even further. but when he speaks, i got annoyed too. am i crazy? i think so too. and i know he been giving in for the past 1year and nearly 9months. ohmygosh! how can someone withstand so long right. i wonder too.

i wasnt in the best of the mood most of my time. and now he's getting depression. (im so not joking) due to his grandma problems, work problems and i even become much a problems too. sigh. i think im just so useless la. when he wanted to share something with me, i always dont have the patient to listen to him. wtf am i doing right. ):

i really dont know. sometime i got so irritated that i just feel like slapping myself too. tell me, so what should i do now.

on the other hand. yuting is following me to bangkok. good or bad. i dont know. ): i just hope boyf can enjoy and look forward this trip as much as i do. but still, i dont think he will.

i hope we can be like in the past. so happy together. no much problems. and just now he say something which make me so guilty, he say i love you too much to fight with you can we please stop all this. ): so how, im feeling so bad. what an ass.

ohwell, meeting him in my life is something unexpected and i believe is my well build karma which led to me meeting him and his retribution to meeting me. ): no one can tahan the most than him. no one can stand me scolding him. i know he love me so much. but i always took it for granted. what if he really leave me one day, i think im so going to die. argh.

blame it on my OH-SO-IRRITATING temper. sigh. ):

actually i love him too. perhaps i just dont know how to express myself. i love the way he hug me and we laugh like no tomorrow. i love the way he pacify me since in the past. its merely one year plus. if all this continue, how are we going to spend together for a lifetime? am i being a paranoid? tell me about it. sigh. ):

and oh ya;

1. yuting booked her tickets for $516 for 2 pax while i got mine at $197 for 2 pax. same airline, same timing, same date of flying and basically we are travelling together. SEE, how much i save, i think im a queen. *geee*

2. im meeting uncle koh and joachim for dinner on wednesday! hahah, so ex-ci-ted. cos joachim gonna fetch me and we are heading off to fetch uncle koh. its the first time he's not coming to fetch us instead. hahaha. (: and i got to choose what i feel like eating. (cos im the only girl!) hahahaha! -.- and i think either we will be heading to hardrock cafe if not will be suki sushi. hopefully it goes well. :D

and i hope all bad things well go. and steven chow will go back to normal. cos i miss him so much.